I always wanted to get back in touch with Tracy. Tracy had recently moved from El Paso, Texas, to the DC area when I was in fifth grade, and I loved her Texas accent. I fell in love with her in because she was way cute, and, she had a pet raccoon. I had read the book "Rascal" (a book about a boy and his raccoon-delightful reading even for adults) about five times, and when I learned that Tracy had one, I spent alot of my time over at her house with her and that coon, "Rinky". But I was never able to get her to be my girlfriend, and after I ran off and joined the Merchant Marines, and came back after my first voyage, I learned that she too had gotten into drugs, and that she had been having regular sex with a number of my friends. Ouch. That was kinda hurtful, and I felt that she had been used by my "friends". I was still in love with her, even when I hooked up with TWI a couple of years later. My new found friends in The Way helped ease me of my "mooning" over her. I wonder what she is doing? I hope her life worked out ok...
I guess I have not had that many "loves" in my past. But the few I had, I think about only occasionally. Much like dmiller said, something will remind me. I suppose that each one was special at that particular time in my life.
I am now hopelessly devoted to my wife of 12 years. Not much time or room in my brain to hold much more that a quick memory for those past.
YEah I think of all of them--I have no contact with them for a variety of reasons usually because we just lost touch--But I remember them all some fondly and othrrs its good they are gone
My first love was in 7th grade. We went into a janators closet fot the first kiss. I was scared to have the lights on so we kissed with them off. He kissed my eye, I kissed his nostril.(nose) After that I didn't kiss again till I was 20. That was my first reality of romance.
that I am today so I'm truly in debt to the ladies. Some I'm VERY in debt to and each month
at bill time is a painful reminder of that....
But jokes aside I cannot possibly imagine not thinking of past loves because aside from a few bad experiences they were all pretty wonderful so its great daydream material.
Of course I realize that its all in
the past and I don't go rooting around for
old phone numbers trying to figure out what
happened to them - in most cases I already know but I'm happy to live off the memory and move
I actually heard from the Major-College-Boyfriend-Who-Broke-My-Heart a few years ago.
About a year after we broke up--a difficult time--his brother died in a car wreck. This was about four months before I met the wows, my senior year in college. Anyway, I had known his brother well (they were only a year apart in age and very close,) and had visited his family several times, so I went to the funeral with a mutual friend. Nearby town.
The ex was a mess. He was in law school so we weren't at the same college anymore, hadn't seen each other in a year. We talked for quite awhile, not about us, but about his brother, no animosity. It was good.
Anyway, the ex contacted me after he saw an obituary for a family member. My maiden name was unusual, and he knew my home town etc.
He sent a card, because he remembered his brother's funeral. We emailed a couple times, just catch up stuff, how old our kids are etc, no fishing for anything.
It was good to hear from him after all these years.We dated for three years, so I have lots of memories of him. I had always wondered what his life turned out like.
When I was married to my ex I thought about my true love all the time...wondering....thinking....what could have been.....too truly love a person as I did to this man....sigh
Of course it was truly an unhealthy kind of love.
And now.....I feel so happy I did not marry what I thought was my true love...sometimes I wonder what his life is like....but now I never wonder what could have been......
Because I have a true love that is healthy and good.....I don't look back as I once did wondering...because if it really happened what I had always wondered, I would not have what I have now....Really true love of giving not just by me but by my true love to me....to my children.....and I don't even have to have my rose colored glasses on....yahoo!!!!!
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Shellon
Jim, my first love in Kindergarten.
He's a pedophile now.
Richard, my second love in 6th grade, I stole some marbles for him.
Happily married now for 23 years.
Tom, high school sweetheart, engaged to be married for 2 years.
Broke engagement when he slapped me.
Bob North, the one I married and truly loved, the father of my daughters.
Him I miss.
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Dot Matrix
Sigh....
Love is a funny thing, huh?
I read your story in the story section, it did read that Bob was the love of your life. I am sorry he passed.
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yes it is. love doesn't come around very often, we better grab it when it does eh?
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Thinking of past loves?? Uh-uh, no I don't. Sometimes I will see something that reminds me of someone in my past, but other than that, no.
And as far as saying "sorry", or having them say "sorry", I don't worry about that anymore either. Water under the bridge..........
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I always wanted to get back in touch with Tracy. Tracy had recently moved from El Paso, Texas, to the DC area when I was in fifth grade, and I loved her Texas accent. I fell in love with her in because she was way cute, and, she had a pet raccoon. I had read the book "Rascal" (a book about a boy and his raccoon-delightful reading even for adults) about five times, and when I learned that Tracy had one, I spent alot of my time over at her house with her and that coon, "Rinky". But I was never able to get her to be my girlfriend, and after I ran off and joined the Merchant Marines, and came back after my first voyage, I learned that she too had gotten into drugs, and that she had been having regular sex with a number of my friends. Ouch. That was kinda hurtful, and I felt that she had been used by my "friends". I was still in love with her, even when I hooked up with TWI a couple of years later. My new found friends in The Way helped ease me of my "mooning" over her. I wonder what she is doing? I hope her life worked out ok...
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I guess I have not had that many "loves" in my past. But the few I had, I think about only occasionally. Much like dmiller said, something will remind me. I suppose that each one was special at that particular time in my life.
I am now hopelessly devoted to my wife of 12 years. Not much time or room in my brain to hold much more that a quick memory for those past.
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Remembering past loves…
I look back with the famous “what if” questions.
Most of my “previous” girl friends are now married (as far as I know) to someone else. Sigh…
Remembering past loves is bittersweet. I think on the good times, and I recollect the heartache when we broke up.
Sometimes I wonder how they are and what they are doing. I sometimes wonder if they ever think of me.
Later, (when I am sober) I wonder, what was I thinking…
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YEah I think of all of them--I have no contact with them for a variety of reasons usually because we just lost touch--But I remember them all some fondly and othrrs its good they are gone
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Dot here is another song good for a trip down memory lane.
I'm Not Supposed To Love You Anymore
Bryan White
WE AGREED THAT IT WAS OVER
NOW THE LINES HAVE ALL BEEN DRAWN
THE VOWS WE MADE BEGAN TO FADE
BUT NOW THEY'RE GONE
PUT YOUR PICTURE IN THE SHOEBOX
AND MY GOLD RING IN THE DRAWER
I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE
NOW SHERRI SAID SHE'S JEALOUS
OF THIS FREEDOM THAT I'VE FOUND
IF SHE WERE ME SHE WOULD BE
OUT ON THE TOWN
AND SHE SAYS SHE CAN'T IMAGINE
WHAT ON EARTH I'M WAITING FOR
I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE
OH I SHOULDN'T CARE OR WONDER WHERE
AND HOW YOU ARE
BUT I CAN'T HIDE THIS HURT INSIDE MY BROKEN HEART
I'M FIGHTING BACK EMOTIONS THAT I'VE
NEVER FOUGHT BEFORE
'CAUSE I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE
NOW I'M WRITING YOU THIS LETTER
AND IT'S KILLING ME TONIGHT
THAT I AGREED WHEN YOU BELIEVED
IT WASN'T RIGHT
AND I COULDN'T SLEEP UP ON THE BED
SO I'M DOWN HERE ON THE FLOOR
WHERE I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE
OH I SHOULDN'T CARE OR WONDER WHERE
AND HOW YOU ARE
BUT I CAN'T HIDE THIS HURT INSIDE MY
BROKEN HEART
I'M FIGHTING BACK EMOTIONS THAT I'VE
NEVER FOUGHT BEFORE
'CAUSE I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE
I'M FIGHTING BACK EMOTIONS THAT I'VE
NEVER FOUGHT BEFORE
'CAUSE I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU
ANYMORE
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My first love was in 7th grade. We went into a janators closet fot the first kiss. I was scared to have the lights on so we kissed with them off. He kissed my eye, I kissed his nostril.(nose) After that I didn't kiss again till I was 20. That was my first reality of romance.
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If we are doing songs...
Send her my love - Journey
(Steve Perry/Jonathan Cain)
It's been so long
Since I've seen her face
You say she's doin' fine
I still recall
A sad cafe
How it hurt so bad to see her cry
I didn't want to say good-bye...
CHORUS
Send her my love memories remain
Send her my love roses never fade
Send her my love
The same hotel, the same old room
I'm on the road again
She needed so much more
Than I could give
We knew our love could not pretend
Broken hearts can always mend...
CHORUS
Callin' out her name I'm dreamin'
Reflections of a face I'm seein'
It's her voice
That keeps on haunting me
Send her, send her my love
Roses never faade
Memories remain
Send her, send her, my love
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Oh yes! Often...
Lessss ssseeeeeee this really cute girl I knew that refinished FURNITURE!!! wowee zowee!!! Da ummmm
C'mon Dot!!! (girlfriend you got too much time on your hands!!!)
okay... yeah I do wonder how life turned out for one pycho inparticular... but that's the only one.
I am so blessed (yeah I hate to use that word but I am blessed ) with my wife I have no room for reminicing about "what ifs".
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diazbro
yes all the time. Without those experiences
I could never have become the makeout master
that I am today so I'm truly in debt to the ladies. Some I'm VERY in debt to and each month
at bill time is a painful reminder of that....
But jokes aside I cannot possibly imagine not thinking of past loves because aside from a few bad experiences they were all pretty wonderful so its great daydream material.
Of course I realize that its all in
the past and I don't go rooting around for
old phone numbers trying to figure out what
happened to them - in most cases I already know but I'm happy to live off the memory and move
forward creating new memories.
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Dot Matrix
So make out master, what do you do that makes you the master?
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diazbro
Oh well I dim the lights, put on some gentle samba music, make them a drink, look into
their eyes, and tell them all about my past with
The Way International :> Too easy.....
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notinKansasanymore
Diazbro -
you are too cool.
Best chuckle of the day, so far.
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Diazbro
You are hot and funny!
:)-->
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diazbro,
;)--> 
;)--> 
:D--> 
;)--> 
:)--> that made mw laugh out loud.
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Tom Strange
oh! never mind... I thought it said "past lives"...
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Dot
You made me think on this one. But honestly, I was 21 when I met my beloved. We married soon after.
I really don't think I had any "loves" before him. Not that I didn't date or anything, but I wasn't "invovled" like with him.
So I guess I'm not qualified to answer really, but I can't imagine being with anyone but him.
:D-->
I've had old high school and college buddies call and hint at "what if." Honestly, I can't go there.
:D--> I know I'm wierd.....
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I actually heard from the Major-College-Boyfriend-Who-Broke-My-Heart a few years ago.
About a year after we broke up--a difficult time--his brother died in a car wreck. This was about four months before I met the wows, my senior year in college. Anyway, I had known his brother well (they were only a year apart in age and very close,) and had visited his family several times, so I went to the funeral with a mutual friend. Nearby town.
The ex was a mess. He was in law school so we weren't at the same college anymore, hadn't seen each other in a year. We talked for quite awhile, not about us, but about his brother, no animosity. It was good.
Anyway, the ex contacted me after he saw an obituary for a family member. My maiden name was unusual, and he knew my home town etc.
He sent a card, because he remembered his brother's funeral. We emailed a couple times, just catch up stuff, how old our kids are etc, no fishing for anything.
It was good to hear from him after all these years.We dated for three years, so I have lots of memories of him. I had always wondered what his life turned out like.
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Dot Matrix
*sigh*
I am glad you got to meet up with him again. Sorry about the circumstances.
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vickles
I had one true love that got away....sigh
When I was married to my ex I thought about my true love all the time...wondering....thinking....what could have been.....too truly love a person as I did to this man....sigh
Of course it was truly an unhealthy kind of love.
And now.....I feel so happy I did not marry what I thought was my true love...sometimes I wonder what his life is like....but now I never wonder what could have been......
Because I have a true love that is healthy and good.....I don't look back as I once did wondering...because if it really happened what I had always wondered, I would not have what I have now....Really true love of giving not just by me but by my true love to me....to my children.....and I don't even have to have my rose colored glasses on....yahoo!!!!!
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waterbuffalo
Yes. I think about one of them quite often.
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