The Way International

[cheranne]

Being involved in The Way changed my life, it made me more sensitive to "people"

like in a humanitairian type of way at first.

Then when I decided to leave I was torn in a spiritual world ,the earthly world was NOW better

than what I thought I had found and followed in The Way.

I felt broken and damaged like I had been in a war and been sent home. Still glad to be out and

away from the danger I knew my friends were still in there fighting for something I didn't think they

were even sure IF they believed in anymore.

But...because it was such a fixed situation of living for some friends that had been in there since

the early 70's and were ordained to there calling it made it very difficult to just walk away,eventually

most of them did.

Some I don't know if or where they are but we all started on the same note,everyone that went to

that first twig fellowship, we were all on that same level at first..looking for answers to life,the bible

salvation....a change, and for me The Way was a saftey net so I thought.

Spiritually it became a disaster for me a obsesive compulsive dissorder of knowing scripture and

selling the class,nothing else mattered to me.

Little did I know it was twisted scripiture for I knew very little of the bible in the get go,but I did have

a love for God like a innocent child which was sweet.

That sweetness became SOUR the longer I stayed involved with The Way til it became a sickness

inside of my soul attempting to kill my spirit.

As I look back I wondered how that happened and the only answer I have is the greed of man to make

a buck off the bible and adorn themselves with things or man of god status,and a big spiritual warfare

on whom we were on the dark side of.

Never to win only intending to fight and stand and walk the walk until we ultimatly collapse from sick

ness.

[polar bear]

Thanks for posting but I think it should read "how the way ruined my life".

[Mark Clarke]

Being involved in The Way changed my life, it made me more sensitive to "people"

like in a humanitairian type of way at first.

How about this for a title?

"How GOD changed my life, even in the midst of The Way International"

[JeffSjo]

I felt broken and damaged like I had been in a war and been sent home. Still glad to be out and

away from the danger I knew my friends were still in there fighting for something I didn't think they

were even sure IF they believed in anymore.

Dear Cheranne,

I think that I can relate to how you felt. I hope that the damage is healed or still getting better for you.

Many of your posts have made me smile and think.

PEACE

Jeff

[cheranne]

Thanks Jeff,after 30 yrs I am allright but I always think of those people trying to heal alone

it haunts me.

[JeffSjo]

I think that it's a really good thing to have people on your heart Cheranne. I hope that you saying "haunts me" doesn't indicate that it leads you into feeling helpless or unworthy somehow.

You have helped me with your posts. I still smile at the "Oh Snap" one that you did.

[JeffSjo]

I'm going to go for the rest of the weekend now.

But before I go, let me just say that with our TWI/ splinter group experiences I can understand why some of you would be concerned about being played by someone who only said that they were going through things alone.

If I didn't see what I've seen it would be hard for me to imagine how wicked someone could really be who looked good on the outside.... ie my splinter group leader.

PEACE Y'ALL

JEFF

[potato]

<snip>

Little did I know it was twisted scripiture for I knew very little of the bible in the get go,but I did have

a love for God like a innocent child which was sweet.

That sweetness became SOUR the longer I stayed involved with The Way til it became a sickness

inside of my soul attempting to kill my spirit.

</snip>

I was talking to someone special to me today about living so many years inside a cult, and he said as much as he wanted to, he couldn't empathize because my experiences were so extraordinary and strange that to try to put himself in my shoes was impossible. he does sympathize, however, and was very helpful to me when I wanted to get out of twi.

I can empathize with what you said, cheranne.

[penguin]

That sweetness became SOUR the longer I stayed involved with The Way til it became a sickness

inside of my soul attempting to kill my spirit.

I can relate! Now I am trying to reawaken my spirit now that I am gone.

[cheranne]

i feel you Potato,it is unreal trying to even voice this to a new friend or therapist for that matter

It is like trying to jump start a dead battery with a brand new car but there just is NOT the connection,

and for years I tried to fix this,with self help books with religion with hobbies and it just came down to

talking about it.

Talking about it with someone who could just hold on to this for a while because it is just too much to

hold on to yourself (alone)there are so many levels of spiritual shades of darkness in this cult that

binds you IF you let it.

The problem is people don't see it like that the moment you say the word (cult)for years I use to just

say an alternative religon without roots.

I dare to say how many times people just thought I was a hippie from a Jesus movement back then

Living with groups of people going around spreading the "word" working part time,giving my money to

The Way and supporting people in The Way Corp.

If you had a car or no car ,medicine if you dare be sick! The single focus of TWI is GREED GREED GREED.

More like spreading a disease of a germ from seed of satanism,makes you wonder just how much MOLD

is under that land in New Knoxville like a freaking HOT ZONE!!!!

Still it ....es me off to see people waste their lives,hurt people and hurt themselves in the process and

all under the "blessing of The Way International"

Edited November 16, 2008 by cheranne

[potato]

I can relate! Now I am trying to reawaken my spirit now that I am gone.

me too.

[GrouchoMarxJr]

How twi changed my life?...besides missed opprotunities?

I suppose my twi experience made me more cynical and less likely to fall for "bible con jobs"...After leaving twi, I became more secure in my own belief system and less dependant on the reinforcement of other people or groups...I walked away with a pretty good bull s **t meter.

[FreeFromCults]

How twi changed my life?...besides missed opprotunities?

I suppose my twi experience made me more cynical and less likely to fall for "bible con jobs"...After leaving twi, I became more secure in my own belief system and less dependant on the reinforcement of other people or groups...I walked away with a pretty good bull s **t meter.

You pretty much said it better than I would have. I feel the same way.

[cheranne]

You pretty much said it better than I would have. I feel the same way.

Yes I agree,the pilgrims progress can be shorter if you don't take the long wrong way (twi)home

and trust levels are "always ON"like an equalizer lighting up a sound system in my young sons "pimp

my ride car"

Meaning if you hit a spiritual bump you are aware your losing a connection somewhere and that

I learned AFTER wasting time in twi spin cycle!!

[Ham]

Thanks Jeff,after 30 yrs I am allright but I always think of those people trying to heal alone

it haunts me.

sometimes that's the only options some have..

after thirty years.. I still don't exactly fit anywhere..

I'm not complaining.. things could be worse..

I just hope.. someday, it will find me.. hasn't exactly worked out the other way around..

[Jim]

after thirty years.. I still don't exactly fit anywhere..

And I've come to the conclusion that that's neither bad nor unusual.

[Mark Clarke]

How twi changed my life?...besides missed opprotunities?

I suppose my twi experience made me more cynical and less likely to fall for "bible con jobs"...After leaving twi, I became more secure in my own belief system and less dependant on the reinforcement of other people or groups...I walked away with a pretty good bull s **t meter.

I know what you mean. After TWI and my experiences with splinter groups, I had to re-evaluate my entire belief system. Now for the first time I know why I believe what I do, not because someone told me what I should believe.

[JeffSjo]

I can relate! Now I am trying to reawaken my spirit now that I am gone.

me too.

Hi,

I really, really hope that this goes well for the two of you.

For me what's helped a lot is realizing and looking at how the Lord will treat these evil doers that caused sooo much damage, not just to our lives, but to the lives of many.

When I see the PLAINLY stated consequences in the Bible to those who do these things I can't help but thank God that even though a lot of my life was wrecked by evil people I also see that the Lord has promised that he himself will avenge these things. I am also thankful that when I consider my own faults that I did not take part in such abuse in the Lord's name. Because to be as honest as I know how to be, I could have taken part in them if my life had been manipulated by Wierwille as LCM's and Geer's was.

I also believe that the Lord was not wasting his breath when He said that the kingdom of God BELONGS TO THE BROKENHEARTED. When I think of the good things promised to those who've suffered in this life I take no small comfort.

Peace and Love,

JEFF

p.s. I do not hold anything against those who have taken comfort from other things if they happen not to have the same world view as me either. After TWI abuse I'm just glad that they are still alive and have found something to rely in to put something good in their lives. Many are not still alive.

[cheranne]

It is true you have to rewire yourself after TWI,your wiring is allmessed up inside so much so that

"emotions are shot" you can actually pass a lie detector test(because you believe the old man is dead!)

I mean flat line dead!!!

I took a test like this right after getting out of twi the 2nd time (in order to carry a firearm and protect

the public in a large city and passed it on answers (keeping the old man dead)i should have failed.

Kinda scary like the stepford wives !

[JeffSjo]

I think that for me the years that I spent standing against and resisting my splinter group's doctrine helped me recover from the being controlled thing.

But I still have been damaged, but I think that it was in a different way. Mostly I didn't have any initiative, just kind of in shock and somewhat immobilized.