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God first hi Shellon that the way i can handle the past my friend moved it to the past i thank my friend later i may share on JW boards because dwell with a lot things too i love you my friend thanks with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first My mother! 12-30-2009 After I think how I can tell a story that may confuse some but others might understand that it is my mother that get me thought everyday. My mother taught me to love others like no one other can a true love. On 1967 I was a having grandma seizures my eyes were roll in my head my only had her hands to keep me from lost my life. My temp was 106 when she called my uncle Fred and aunt Liana they came has fast as they because my dad was in Vietnam War at the time. I was watching "I Dream of Jennie" that night but I went to lay myself down before I saw it all that night. My uncles Fred pick me up and took mother and me with him to the hospital and my aunt watch my sisters. My mother knew something was wrong with me and watch me that night her hand had pay the price and she always had problem with her hand. One might say why she did not find something other to put in my mouth there was enough time my life was on the line. The doctors did a Spinal Tap it took four doctors to hold me while another doctor did the Spinal Tap lucky for them I was pass out but some how I knew what was about happen. The doctors told my mother it was Spinal Meningitis we think. No one knew for sure back then what causes things to happens but I have an ideal that might surprise you. I been thing a lot about those times thinking about the time I almost lost my life and my mother almost lost her hand. If my mother knew what cause really was she would hit the head of the school board but since I not sure we let it be. Because I love my mother and my dad I talk my mother hours at a time and I know she dead but life go in me. Thanks With love and a holy kiss Roy God first I seem more I can handle! 12-29-2009 I tears I write to that have dry up all the way I say maybe I wrong and it not happen at all but everything to be falling in place. This is not people that may not understand what it is to be trouble by something that may happen soon long ago. In 1967 I was in first grade and my first grade teacher may did something that only time can heal that could explain a lot of things. I may be wrong but I remember she having candy in her desk and I hear .... on me the teacher was talking not another child. This may not be the case in her class I had Spinal Meningitis which can be cause by close but I do not know for sure and please do not call the school. This was to many ago to cry now but let me add that when I try to receive a blowjob from a woman I get nerves but I am ok doing other things. I had two years in a roll she said would better for me as I think on the other children having fun when I remember the places I used to hide. And there others things that makes me thing she did this but I don’t want to pass something that not true. In a later year I went to my friend house, which was her neighbor to the same teacher out of blue he .... my hand. I never gave it a lot though until now but he kill himself a few years back. You see what saying all the peaches seem to be made a picture that I do not want to see but this the first step putting in the open. The nightmare will only stop when I know for sure because doctor did even care. He seems to be full of himself but I went I hope I am wrong I do not understand what to do because I know people have problems. I just want the past to be the past thank you for listing with love and a holy kiss Roy.

God first hi Shellon I on page #20 and i am enjoying having the Mac read to me thanks thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy 1 on page 60 I am enjoying it my friend

God first hi coolchef i thinking seeing on a monthly bacic if he seem nice i remember to many things and problem is too big it all begin 1967 thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi Kimberly i am sorry i wish i could do something i love you thanks with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first thanks leafytwiglet with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first I cry do you! 12-26-2009 Here I sat crying my eyes out with pain because I do understand something that has just happen to me. How many have had to have a good cry life seem more than you could bear anytime but had to go on. Life has is moments of joy and sadness we cry daily because we do not understand but it seems that everyday. But am I any different from the next guy he cries and he has moments of joy. This may take days to write what I feel an days to write because I am trying to tell my deepest moments of life when and why I cry. It might sound simple but its not because I seem to crying more than the words I write. Some might laugh at us but are they reality laughing but to prove to face the truth of life at all I cry almost every day do you. When everything seems to not be working as I had plan I cry am I so buff up that I fool myself. Day are not as easy as I wished it is not a fairy tale where everything must work out in the end the way I dream. Life is not has the movies teach us it has moments of pure joy and others times of pure hell. The first thing out of a baby mouth is crying because the child is afraid everything is new and later the child feels a good feeling and does not understand it until the realize it wet. When we were children crying was the answer to everything so when did we get to big to cry. On Monday I have to go to a meeting that some think I am being a baby about but that my right if I want to. The last time I was made to see those people my mother was in the hospital for cancer and I told them I would meet him here in hallway because my mother was having in the hospital for cancer and could not candle right now. That **** better be on time because he can drink his coffee any time because I here and I will not play any more games. When some one mixes with another person life he has no excess for being late. Christmas day I found out more about the stock I had from a doctor I never ask before because my mind was not working good then but I was told that day. I had a bad heart too I knew I had a stroke but never knew I had a heart attack too. That why I had three doctors and the MRI is not the brain only but these doctors could of told me but I would not understand. I understand that I crying a lot about the past but we live in the past, present, and future every moment of our lives. Here I am again writing the things that I cry about I did want my family having to worry me Social Security waned my sister get into. Why I will never know I think Social Security can mind own business but knows now. I write so my family does not have to worry about me I always tell some friends but others I do not say a thing because on the internet every body knows and that the way I like things. My friends are people and some people neither seem to be stronger than others nor are my Internet fiends it is just way I like it because of the limit the way it gives us. I blow my top and said some I wish I did not the way I seem it was already in control my friend is going with me because Social Security when they have all right to records do read anything new. Not that have I made a lot of records but life itself is always changing just like some magic thing will not heal me because we all die one day. Here I am again written this a tread or note I write all that read it while putting a topic this is no way the end of this. My hopes is that you do answer but add to my ideal telling about your crying but your reading as a note you can but your on a board I on join me. This topic can get big as we want to or as small as we wish size does not matter so long you to add to this and we all have moments of crying. Try to be truthful if your mad God tell us if you do even God any thought tell what even you cry about keep it real. People might have different opines than you have respect for all no matter you personal believe because we might see things as you do. There are many sides to anything not only right or wrong there are layers of right as there are layers of wrong. It does matter who right or wrong the only thing that is how live and die all else matter nothing. How we play the game of life only matters rather we write or not because of fear some one will laugh at us so will but their crying the most. So I will end now with thank you and love and a holy kiss Roy.

God first hi leafytwiglet and waysider holy hugs brother's today was better maybe will not too bad thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi leafytwiglet/ thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi smarter thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy God first hi Ham thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi # # Ham, # brideofjc, # nowayhozay thanks with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi excathedra thank you very must i love you too with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first I love you I really do! 12-22-2009 As I think on life it make me cry I think what might have been if I had a fare change in life at all but we know things are always fare. What have I given to this world I can tell a lot stories about my life and I can cry because it not fare. But I whether share love no matter how much pain I feel I dream at night I am being hit by all people in this wicket world. Monday I have to see a mental doctor for Social Security it makes want to cry. Have they took enough from I ask do they know I go sleep and feel them hitting me over and over? When I think on what I could done in my life if it was from everybody having a big laugh on me. But they were young too and do not blame anyone and they know the pain I would have to live with. I did not speak plain but I never given a change to learn and first grade teacher might took advance of me. The last time I try to talk to mental doctors they made it worse because I would obey them I told myself I rather die then give them a change again. I practice holding my breath with my mouth wide open controlling my breathing. It is possible to will one death but I do not want to do that but I will not be puppet in a play even Einstein would want that. I see Einstein has a lot like me he saw himself traveling on beam on light. Math was always my strong suit and was Einstein his too if school would of given me the change I wanted. So I could have been has smart as Einstein or even smarter but wisdom is not measure that way. Is wisdom a matter of how much you can love your brother because we are all flesh and bone? Is it measure by how much you can take because I have my share a long time ago and wish other could see this? I am not by myself God has place in my path many friends but in school I was a lone but not I have friends. As I think what is normal I hear voices my mother who is no longer living Adam the first men to live and many more. To hear the fleshly dead people is not wrong but to not understand would be wrong but to understand it’s the glory of God. My mother has become part of me just like Adam part of self the, we in my mind. I am who I am and the, we of my mind that gives me the strength to overcome more wisdom Einstein when he my age. I love you but its hard now because of the many things happen in my heart. The pain I must travel through on a bean on God, which is faster than any light bean that Einstein saw himself riding on. Pain can be overcome just like life can overcome with death I hope it will not come to this but it in another one hands. Fhould I been laugh at one more time to make them happy do they get their fun laughing at me. Maybe they think its funny to tier me to a bed like told she told me I knew why they did it to me so many years ago. Because they could do it in 2002 when my mother was hospital for caner and my mother die 2005. I was fighting them because I find out they were fools I caught them lying to they and me want me trust them again. I getting tired so I will leave you now maybe we will talk soon maybe not but no matter what I love you because I lost for words. Thank you very much I love you with love and a holy kiss Roy.

God first hi everybody Albert Einstein wanted the secret of theories of special relativity in time special relativity has a basic of present but if took into the picture of relativity Einstein would saw that he was close if one could made a bomb that blow into space and time one would open a hole in time itself one would find out a white holes explains a black hole one creation would made hole in space that has two sides the moving out and the others moving in the creation of new space one and the destroy of old space where light is made and where light is destroy proving time does not matter but one set off a bomb that blow in on itself because the Gavilly of bomb everybody dies space turn in on itself time no meaning what will happen will and what will not happen will not time means nothing at all thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi everybody i still here life has up and downs my friends are true on line or in person As i think how many friends I have like the He*. who just across the hallway who has tea for me like Gina who below me with roommate until she get own place like my friend across the hallway from her were all a family i love you all thanks thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi BrideofJC your welcome thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first God’s holy truth! 12-14-2009 I said it before and I will tell you again “I write God’s word” as God moves to write truth I write truth. Some do not believe me but they did not believe apostle Paul when he wrote God’s word. Some cry we have God’s word and you have not the wisdom or the right to say something against the bible. I speak loud and bold apostle Paul was a man like me and I tell you apostle Paul was greater than you or even me. Apostle Paul spoke the word truth just like I claim to be doing God is not dead he is living to share his love to all that will listen. Apostle Paul spoke in part just like do he did understand every thing so his wisdom was only in part neither is mine whole. I tell as much as I can see and as little as I can see some I talk worldly things apostle Paul talk about the world he was in. I am human just like apostle Paul was I am a holy men like apostle Paul was. I did always obey right and wrong and I still do not but apostle Paul did not in his life and he done he was not happy for it. Now that I am not going to give you nothing new here but I thank you, with a holy kiss Roy. <object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&"'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&"'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&"'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZpz0re9tZg

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God first hi leafytwiglet yes it somewhat odd because i did not begin like I wanted but time will make me better thanks with love and a holy kiss Roy

God first hi kimberly thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pgX-Q_HyBc

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God first and Jesus Christ My longest tread ever and shortest! 12-12-2009 Here it come my longest tread ever and my shortest tread ever but one wonder how I can I write a long tread while written a short tread? But what is length anyway but a label someone gives to it anyway. What is a name but a label and what is a label? Some people love God but what is a God but a being that someone label him or her as? So no matter what others say I believe in God that I cannot see and I know others do not. This is not a tread about a God or even my views why I believe in a God that I cannot see but this is a tread to share my feeling. I hear myself think and I feel that God talking with me some say it is wrong to hear what I hear. While they cry I need drugs to control what I hear but I do hear anything that tells me harm others at all I think that they do not even understand life at all. They want me high why because they are afraid of me why? I can think faster than most people no I can think about many things at the same time but it not wrong just different. I see God in everything and none how can that be some say there is no God but others believe like I do. How can it both ways but I say how it not be both because God is greater than anything we know fleshly and less than anything we know fleshly? God is spiritual man just knows natural things his body is made of dirt and dirt gives it life by the oxygen in man’s blood. The love and hate man has cannot be seen all the emotions man that men has cannot be saw because looks like another one. God tells us he is love and the devil is hate but this could be debated. God has two sides where the emotions either die or live forever be and there is a God of love but there also a God of hate. Some say dog do not have emotions but I say they do too even dirt has emotions. You ever heard the saying he dumper than dirt that a lie because dirt only has to know about dirt. But it also true how can a lie be true because only matters how you study it what a lie to me may be true to you. One emotion to one is good but the others bad but is hate truly hate is love truly love or is it the label we give it. Why is “a” spoken the way it is because it sounds like a “a” or is there more to it than that? My teacher’s taught how to draw “a” but no one taught me why “a” is “a” but I read a book years ago that taught me? The shape of the mouth and way it is sounded out makes it “a” not a “b”. Think about it some love is a good emotion and hate is bad emotion just God is good and the devil is bad. Thank you very must, with love and a holy kiss from Roy.

God first hi kimberly and brainfixed kimberly -- yes hula girls would nice brainfixed -- I wish you could be superman for me too but that not possible or is it and your welcome thank you with love and a holy kiss Roy