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I was reamed a few times for not following "suggestions." How manipulating-'suggesting" then raging at the person for not taking it. Tantamount to a command, my butt. Just a way to say afterwards, "well it was your choice" when following said suggestion crapped all over your life. Saying the Word was over the World was another chance for ldrshp to back pedal. I was "corrected" for thinking JC would come back when that happened. I could swear it had been taught that way-who knows. But now the word was over the world and only the "faithful remnant" were standing. An excuse to cover up failure and explain incredibly low numbers.

I got some peole to sign up for it in my city. They just stared at me when Loyster got to the part he rewrote about Eve. I'm glad my city is big enough to not run into these people often. Whatever friendship I had with them was gone after they asked me about it and I condoned it. They wrote me off as a whack-a-doo.

The first time I took the RM class-I had a hard time RM my mind because the guy teaching it was totally imitating VPW and he was young at the time. No one that age spoke like that. Whenever I mentioned it I got crazy responses. He was raised by UH or he he had really made the word his own so he sounded like the man. I tried taking it again and his VPW parady grated on me. Then he was M&A and it got pulled. I was around a lot of young men who imitated the loyster. It could be hurtful, but mostly it was awkward-they were not being themselves it came off bad.

We had a band teacher in our community who would brag about the numbers of students wanting to learn music since she came on board. There were only two elective choices, art and band. And the kids had to pick two electives. I knew a family that had Wymag subscriptions for every family member in their house. The parents said they were so excited when the Wymag came they they didn't want to make anyone wait to read it. The word was so timely. I don't believe their son really read it. I knew a Wycorpse woman who gave up her job and home to take a new assignment. A day before leaving for the ROA, she got a phone call from the LC wife (a gleeful egotistical beeotch) who told her she was dropped from the Wycorpse because she had not renewed her Wymag. (She had been sharing with her room mate). She had no job and no where to live. The Wyleadership did not understand basic math. If you run off all of your people, your numbers go down. DUH!!!!!!!! :danghitsfan:

I don't miss obedience to abundance teachings. (If I obey this over bearing, egotistical jack foot that does not have to wake up and live my life each day-I will have abundance. Nada) A minimum of three fellowships per week. Hanging out and being responsible for weird people. Bank rolling a life for people who are not helping anyone. Free Baby sitting and cleaning the L home. Door to door witnessing. Mall witnessing. Public explanation witnessing. Witnessing. Automatic clapping and laughing at jokes that are just not funny. Working for free, then getting bitch slapped over minor details. Stupid gifts and cards for stupid leaders who didn't help but demanded the chairs be stringed and the public bathrooms be scrubbeed to perfection. no excitement for what the future held.

In one of my previous posts, i told how I was up for a great job on the ww field but I lost the opportunity when I brought my entire felloe=wship with me to the second interview at the advice of the LCoord. Their "believing" was supposd to help me. It made me look ridiculous. Mickey D's and other min wage jobs for me after that. I remember acting like I enjoyed activities, books and movies touted by leadership. Thinking their personal preferences were holier than mine. I also parrotted their opinions. I got to a place where I assumed if I personally liked something, it must be wrong. One night, there was a meeting I really didn't want to go to. I just wanted time to relax and read a fiction book. This one guy came to check on me (WYGB) so I jumped in bed, hiding the book under my pillow. I must have given it away some how because at one point he put his hand under my pillow and pulled the book out. Of course, I was confronted on wasting my mind on "worldly material" and I should have pushed myself to be at the meeting even if I was sick. (I never admitted I wasn't sick.) After that, he made it his mission to pick me up for these tedious meetings where we listened to the most boring teaching tapes known to mankind. I once pretended to have to work and he showed up to check on me. I did see the blatant contradictions. One person would be accused of allowing the adversary into their life while another was considered under attack of the adversary for the very same thing. Their rules, opinions and standards were arbitrary, capricious and nonnegotiable. I stopped trying to figure out the contridictions and pushed to find at best, weak ways to defend them. SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad those days are over for me.

Thanks Waysider. Our family had one of those. I never knew it was called that. I remember I liked to play with it as a kid.

Just curious. What is a creche?

Yes, I always have been able to because actually, the Non Christians have never been problematic for me. In twi-other Christians were disregarded, unappreciated, ridiculed and even despised for not "knowing the truth" or being "biblically accurate". Even at times being accused of being "possesed" because of wrong doctrine. It's great to meet other Christians and no longer have that wall up. It's like this whole network of people who have my back and I have theirs. A question for you: Sometimes I get the sense that the reason some people say they are no longer Christian is because they have been so hurt by an organization such as twi. But maybe it's only the hurt talking and a need to feel liberated from all the crappy people that oppressed us. Have you picked up on that too? Thanks Taxi Cab and Happy Friday!

I knew people that were intimidated into signing up for the WC because of this statement. Like talking to lcm would bring them closer to God. Funny how the twi religion and other religions have the same patterns. Then it went to the WC no longer being about becomming just FC's. It became about being leaders of at least tens, preferably hundreds. The ante was upped and these same people who just wanted to be good enough to talk to lcm were very stressed.

From what I understand, if you are in debt you can't hold any position in twi. It's dumb really, I know someone who had their parents put a home in their name so they could say the debt wasn't theirs and stay as FC. They pay the mortgage to the parents and the parents send the payments to the mort co. What's the dif?

I know that I like the freedom I now have to just appreciate anyone who is a Christian and loves God. I no longer feel so limited in my friendships. I have met some wonderfully wise ladies that have never heard of twi. I'm no longer searching for perfection defined by unreasonable, unkind and unstable people.

I remember exactly what I did. i used a teaching from the ROA that year. I did not know how to teach. The assis FC asked me to teach last minute since the FC had been called to the limb home. I just parroted what was on the tape, too afraid to admit I did not know how to put a teaching together. Everyone told me I did a great job and they were really blessed by it. But the FC later interogated me on what I taught, he wanted so many details I panicked. I was afraid to admit what I had done. He wanted me to show him how I had researched it. I freaked out and asked why. He kept saying he needed to make sure he was protecting the fellowship. We got into a big argument and I never told him I had just repeated what was said on a tape. I thought it was a huge disgrace to not be a researching teaching maverick. How dumb.

It disturbs me that I was one of the excuse makers back then. I wish I had been braver and honest. But they did set it up so no one had time to process it and give an honest opinion. We heard the tape, then everyone was given a minute to respond. We were assigned turns around the table. We practically congratulated him for being a W**re. Then it was supposed to be over and done with. No more time spent on it. Whenever one of us peons made even the mildest of errors, we were brutalized, sometimes over and over again. There was always plenty of time to discuss our sins, and we were not given the "under so much spiritual pressure" free pass. Sure, now I know what I would say.... <_<