teknon20

Dear Lookout, Just Thinking, and others, I'm really sorry if my post sent red flags. I understand and respect concerns of anonymity. I don't know the ins and outs of this message board and what constitutes as a red flag. I have, however, learned how to use the search field and now I understand that my post and suspicious identity will forever be questioned and associated with Terry Bradshaw every time there is a search about the commercial and that name. No I am not Terry Bradshaw while Just Thinking was just kidding, I apologize that I'm not finding anything amusing about my situation. To the few that I privatly emailed I realized after the fact due to my lack of computer savvy you now know my name and my hubby's name from the email account. Nothing I can do about it now, except to say that as distrusting as I feel in general these days, I do feel surprisingly peaceful that the personal information I inadvertently revealed will not go further. About this I feel 100 percent and say thank you. I feel 80/20 about the support coming my way since my legitimacy is suspected. I really do understand, really I do. Guess I am just naive. Naive and Clueless. What a sorry state. Teknon

Thank you so much for all your encouragement. My hubby has been supportive of my "wonderings" and knows for me to be fully persuaded I may have to explore what else is "out there". (yes he is aware that I'm reading websites) Because Way doctrine is all I've ever been taught he feels once I see the alternatives in the churches I will basically feel icky enough to run back into the arms of the way. He asks for me to support him in his way endeavors and insists that the children be involved. When I did not show at a recent event apparently our current fc said something about my hubby about my absence and being the head of the house blah blah blah and hubby jumped all over him in front God and everyone present. Even the Rev chuckled about it saying the fc had some things to overcome (I assume in the area of minding his own business?) Hubby and I are planning a sit down q&a sessions with the Rev, as the Rev insists he had lots of good answers to peoples questions. Apparently I'm not the only one "challenged". We'll see how it pans out. In the meantime I do appreciate the email invites and I will open up more as time permits. Again thanks for the encouragement.

I was introduced to The Word and got born again 20 yrs ago via the Way. What lead me to search this website is that 1)my husb and I have been asked to again assist in coordinating a HHF 2) my child just turned 12. I've really been coasting for the past few years, I guess in hopes that God would deliver this ministry that I have built my life's worth of believing on. Before I could shift from coasting mode, I needed to explore and resolve some deep-seated doubts harbored in my heart. Thru this and other sites I have seen the other side that I had so easily dismissed. For this I am ashamed. I never knew. So many still standing in the Way simply do not know the extent of deception and resulting pain that so many have been subjected to through the years. I am SO sorry. For you, for me. I am just numb. All I wanted was to know the truth of the Word and to know God. I believed that the Way was God's tool for me. There are a couple of posters that I would like to privately email if you don't mind. How do I go about getting their addresses? I need help to sort through so much and am not ready to do so publicly here. I do so appreciate and respect each one's views. I only know my experierce. For those still in things have seemingly changed for the better. The screaming has stopped. There seems to be a balance now. Personally my family has not subscribed to the mag or tapes for 2+ years. Our tithe is not regular. I don't participate in everything or volunteer like I used to. I rarely go to hookups (like one in the past 3 or 4 months). When I choose to stay home and watch tv instead of go to HHF, I don't always call and I rarely offer a reason why, nor am I asked. I have not been approached, suggested to, confronted on any of these things. (Im not corp btw) And somehow I have a good reputation. I'm viewed as spiritually mature. Heck they want me to teach and assist. Please don't misunderstand my intentions for providing these details. I don't offer my circumstances as any kind of defense by any means, but rather to show how things are viewed as "healing occuring" in how things are done now to those still here, that some are not feeling the pressure or negatives that we all faced in the past. To them it feels like a "new day". They are hopeful for growth, and excited about new classes being offered. But see, most of them are clueless as I have been, still ignoring those unanswered longings to grasp the past with some understanding. All this said, I have had my deep seated doubts exposed and identified. So many questions that were never offered answers to are being answered thanks to all you who contribute to this website. For this I am grateful, because now I can truly make an INFORMED decision about my affiliation, about my children's participation, about my support or lack of it concerning my hubby's desire to do what he wants to do. I know the road ahead is not clear. My heart has always been to know the truth of The Word and to know God. If this isn't it, then there's got to be another way than all I have ever known til now.