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happy birthday to a sweetie pie gal love,ex

i still am not sure about many things. sometimes i feel like i'm absolutely dead certain and other days well maybe not but of course i'm 52 now looking back

that was so nice of you, brainfixed i don't think it would happen to me now

thank you jeff for accepting my apology the thought that wierwille would tell me anything about what made me good enough in god's eyes (or his eye -- i'm so mean) is just too disgusting for me to think about

i'm so happy you were born. i love you lots

sorry, john knapp -- not sure then -- my mom and siblings are always on me about hanging out with ex-cultists -- like you can get help from people who got sucked in too ? lol there's something to be said for that although it's been very helpful to get things out of my system this way -- i don't know. i really wonder. i know a lot of ex-druggies become drug counselors because they really understand but i also wonder how much cult type thinking still remains in counselors like you, john -- not trying to offend at all -- thinking is all i'm doing -- anyone else on the panel -- is it a panel -- does not have training, am i correct ? do the blind lead the blind ? we all bring our baggage, that's for sure so like i said, i'm just thinking it gets hard to trust anyone one gal i know who went to a professional counselor (NOT an excultist) ended up having an affair with him -- she had already been raped and been in a cult, etc., etc. so that's really scary. sounds like something that would happen to me for crying out loud --- forgive my wording, it was not an "affair"

musta had a bad ear too sowwy

i'm sorry jeff. i didn't mean it that way against your words. i meant thinking about some of that past kind of thinking, leadership, etc.

a battle of wills ? a battle of finding yourself or remembering yourself but if you were in from the childhood beginning you have to rediscover you not that different from my journey i love who you are

thank you. i look forward to your next report

you can't trust anybody or anything

i can't even read this s h i t

oh let's not fight especially over toilet paper i don't mean to diminish anyone's feelings i love yiou guys

i got married on a self-invented revelation thingy but i have to say even though it was twisted i love my ex a lot because he's such a great guy

love is the authentic relationship -- self and jesus christ/god ...... my search always ..... and my comfort forever.... long before twi and thankfully still real to me after veepee

i appreciate your post so much and after a while, you might feel like you're in a cult again ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha however, let me say how thankful i am for waydale and greasespot

of course i'm getting lost (in my soul ;)) you learned that in twi ? i think i lost that in twi but maybe before and they it just helped me along

hey paw would you go on there if refiner was there ?

oh where's the profit ? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha haha haha ha if satori comes, i'll come, and pay 50 bucks lol

do they have a map?

this was nice on a google -- not from a shrink -- just from someone

awwww d...... sniff sniff..... how lovely and rummie happy mother's day and to all you wonderful daddy's.....

i'm so very sorry but i'm so glad you had him love,ex

heebie jeebies i just don't get it but if you ever want to just talk and have fun in group, i'm game, just not sure i'll pay for it :)