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ps. while i'm very familiar with sexual abuse in the way ministry, i am curious about your reference to drugs. i hope i'm not prying. you can always pm me -- or not

purple days, hi, love you, e dear be-g i understand how you feel. i think "abuse" is an appropriate word to describe your experience while i did not grow up in twi, i was abused growing up, and then ran to a "new" family my freshman year in college i can relate to so much of your thoughts and expressions and feelings i think i can safely say that you will continue to get better in a lot of ways however, when i first started dealing with crap, i had like a mini nervous breakdown. i went off the internet for about eight months if i recall then i just came on and posted teeny weeny little bits while drinking and then came back and deleted it all, etc., etc. it was a rough time and more rough times followed i can only say that i'm not as bad off as i was once i started to vent and look at stuff and express myself i don't know if any of this is making sense my intent is to tell you i care. you're about 30 and i'm about 54 :) i think you'll be okay -- i hope and wish and pray you will. you have more years to get normal than i ;) well WTF is normal ? love,e you take care

stella stella :wub:

you all are so awesome thank you i'm still flipping out about rasberries OMG james gang -- haven't listened yet as my computer is acting up -- but it doesn't seem like the song i remember but i'm not sure again, thank you all -- you make my day love,e

(((((( cara )))))) hugs and welcome

yes i would concur i think god is very loving

dear be-g i'm sick you are a wonderful human being i'm so sorry and so mad i could i don't know what

so why the f did he need any sleep at all

i just say a little prayer

if vp was going to get up earlier he would have to change what he did at night pppffffttttt what a jerk ps. geer is scary enough without a new face

you are not forgiven :) ;) :wub:

sometimes we took pennies out of horn 'a plenty and helped people -- please don't tell

it's taken me the most posts of anywhere here to say something in a few words lol how embarrassing but i don't have a lot of people to talk to -- i do have a lot of people (my family) who love me and i'm the luckiest person in the world for that i started on the email and internet beyond help -- that's what i felt you have come a long way baby, way before me love,ex hi belle, i love you pm me -- i want to call you

well they just were not committed enough now i'll read the thread or maybe later since i have to go

bless patrol at emporia was good. we got stale popcorn. i don't know if we had to check any charts -- sounds familia -- it was probably aerobic points rather than flossing -- but we never checked anything we just drank coffee and ate popcorn and got to know each other which was nice some people really got to know each other making out and all sniff not me lol once or twice i had bless patrol with a "religious" person -- i told them to chill or take it easy that's all i can remember at the moment i think being awake when the world is asleep and looking at the stars and hearing night creatures, etc., is always cool

ps. the ex-nun broke my heart -- but really it's just as heartbreaking that he had to cover up and have a pretend marriage. i probably felt so much for her because two of my aunts are nuns. one is -- oh never mind. god is love but i haven't seen much love in this life

just the title makes me sad i was without a doubt ripe for the picking but i wonder why my other siblings didn't fall for sheet i guess they fell for other sheet in their own way but i still don't get it all

i did think it looked like a leafy vagina but what i really wanted to say is that when i saw the title of thread i thought it said policy on homosexuality / beastialty (sp? i'm serious i always thought DM and MF(G)were homosexual lovers there was one guy in the 6th i believe on staff in kansas and he married this lovely gal who was also on staff and i think she was 6th. it was heartbreaking -- really -- she used to be a nun and then she married him but he was still always going downtown to emporia to be with men. she was devastated. i cried my eyes out with her because of the cover-up, using her as a front, type thing. she left and went home to her parents. we wrote to each other for a while. he probably got fired. i'm trying to remember. but all of it was sad. -- -- -- -- oh, what is so insane is rosalie's hypocrisy i personally don't care, but she is like a liar from hell -- -- -- another time in gunnison i was on bless patrol during the sunday night service. i walked into a room and there were two gals -- 9th and 11th -- in bed together giggling. i just walked out.

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you're so welcome ! i feel very much like you do i LOVE not having to obey anyone trying to guilt me i LOVE just feeling okay about myself i'm still screwy (sp?), but i'm not so scared anymore it feels really good i talk to myself a lot and to god and jesus christ (those are the 3 people who listen) -- plus my mom lol but it's nice i used to wake up in the morning years ago and feel that if i wasn't reading the bible i was a no-good you know not any longer i could share more but i find myself boring :)

i am not sure about all this the only thing that comes to mind is "go to the ant thou sluggard" ;) sowwy

love you out and aboutie !!!!

he will i believe i hope he is love

i'm so sorry ((((((((((((((((((( dear steve lortz ))))))))))))))))))))))

it was always so hot during the day and in the morning in ohio it was freezing and i felt damp and yucky the shower lines were long i'm not one for -- every day i'm camping -- CAMPING