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am i making sense here? look, even a woman girl threw herself at him, he was still responsible to -- be a good man BUT HE DIDN'T EVEN DO THAT! I NEVER THREW MYSELF AT HIM!!!! I RAN AWAY SO MANY TIMES!!!!! I ONLY ENDED UP "WITH" HIM WHEN I WAS DRINKING WITH HIM ON THE COACH AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED UNTIL I VIEWED IT FROM THE CEILING oh man, you've all heard this all before and in the morning

what what what? johnny yam you said this recently? listen -- you can't be a reverend man of god and deceive young (or old) women and tell them god told you he wants them to heal you from sexual abuse and will teach you the way of a man with a maiden it's just wrong -- it's downright evil you can't just commit evil and still be a good man you can't intentionally tell a girl you're called by god to HEAL her do you see what i mean it's so much more than an "accidental" i don't know "i think you're cute" or whatever people get in trouble for nowadays it's just F******D up i'll write more when i calm down i'm from a generation or family who excuse priests from molesting little boys !!!!! i've always been the type that can forgive ANYONE but i'm tired of that nonsense do you see what i mean??????????? ps. i'm not playing god here. he can forgive to the uttermost anyone he likes i'm not even talking about forgiveness i'm talking about f'd up ness

to set the record clearly, i was in an all girls night owl when wierwille shared about teaching his young daughter about being with a man. he compared it to some ancient tribe or something -- you know, where they need to learn it or how else will they know how to be with a man? ohmygod it's been so many years i know more on this subject from doop who was in the way before i was it's all very sad and sadly -- having heard something similar from my childhood abuser -- i didn't leave but i certainly got sick ---- i also heard from someone who honestly knew for a fact about a children's fellowship coodinator who was a pedophile ugh ugh ugh i can't imagine being a child in that situation -- well, i can, because i was in my family but i thought the way would be my godly rescue, but by then i was already in 19 or something i can't fathom being a child looking up to oh never mind it's all the fruccckkking same, isn't it? but worse for little ones

JETS

do you have a chat room trust and obey?

beehive i think i called her my2cents jim doop refiner

galen another one :) yes it was toppie -- topoftheworld pirate1974 a really great girl who always came on the 9th corps thread many more -- i'm going to think -- just so i can thank shazdancer rhino ralph but i forget his screen name did i say ahat and there are two gals damn it'll come to me also thesongremainsthesame alfacat mwah tomtuttle

i do want to remember some people former researcher orange cat an awesome lovely girl from 10th who was raped traveling to lead -- why can't i remember her screen name? i love her so much goey ginger tea another really beautiful girl and yet another i wish i had a memory ahat satori of course paul allen john and hope mj long gone (died) dovie (died) -- i'll be back

just tagging on here -- don't want to start a thread my mom and i were talking yesterday about jews and she felt so bad about people saying it never happened i told her about the book in the way book store -- the myth -- she said oh that makes sense -- his name wierwille -- and him being a cult leader and all it's funny she's the only one in my family who took the class because i begged her to

god is love as is christ that's nice eh?

thank you ginger xoxo

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i am not sure about what was said in "the class" i know definitely that my past child abuse made me a target -- but i don't see that as my fault when wierwille said he would heal me from past sexual abuse, i think that was very sick

hugs to you shaz i want to thank too many but i'm afraid i will miss someone and i will miss so many -- already do -- the ones that are long gone -- oh, long gone :(

(not trying to make this about me, just my experinece) wierwille really took advantage of me and hurt me very badly the way corps program damaged me for a long time -- it broke me in some way i also met so many wonderful great unbelievably lovely people there i also had deep experiences with god and christ which is true to this day i'm glad they were there with me when i knew it and especially when i didn't no thanks to wierwille or the way

john richeson wants to start a 9th way corps site just for us because he thinks we're so awesome !!!!! yes we are, aren't we ;)

a little guilt never hurt a kid

that song always made me cry tom strange wow happy birthday and you too wrdswrks !!!!!! you cute little yungin' i love you nikie and rocky and wrds and simon and tim graves (what the heck is his handle/screen name) and all "you guys" i feel so lucky to have reconnected with you i really do look forward to being together in the eternal future -- all that time to share on the mic on your birthday and with perfect minds we won't get bored, right ? xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

or will be soon thank you all for the moments then and since then i love you so much

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i just found out from an ex friend that greasespot is closing the email list thingy and waydale and then greasespot helped me more than i can ever express thank you pawtucket for everything and thank you everyone who helped me

i don't know what to say except that i am deeply happy beyond words speechless i love and adore dot for over 30 years and i love and adore groucho since the internet my heartfelt love to both of you. i hope with all that i can say that you give each other the love you both so deserve love and xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, e