excathedra

i feel pretty certain that some good folks followed the "big leaders" and what they were taught in the corps program one can think they are doing something for god and be very wrong -- wouldn't you agree? -- nothing to do with face melting or yelling, but i can remember telling a lovely "corps sister" some bullsheet that i was taught -- it's too painful to get into right now

thank you roy love,ex

i think wierwille and the group tripped me out never god or his son not sure what i mean by "the group" -- just some leaders and people who didn't seem too god-like

i thought harry was our uncle

i always loved hearing stories about Corrie Ten Boom

i really don't know cara the yelling and face melting just seemed to be "a way" (snort) for crazy people to feel like they were important

so many terms and stuff -- overused and misused and abused etc lol

luckily i missed most of martindale's insane years but he was starting to lean that way when i knew him and so was tom jenkinson and chris geer (well he had already gone off the edge in my opinion) and some others

planning for a catastrophe is setting the frikkin alarm :)

i think all of life leads us to where we are lol hope that makes sense

i like you socksie and linzee and some others because even if you didn't experience it, you're willing to say you believe others who did

let it come quickly please :)

thank you for responding i do try to learn and examine myself and have been for a very long time this person emailing me about my "waking up" or whatever he said -- i don't need "COOL" "NOW YOU'RE CATCHING ON" what a f'er what am i catching on to? that it was my fault? i understand about being vulnerable and about having a past that makes one so so i'm supposed FOCUS on that when it comes to wierwille ? -- i had someone tell me once that older men (as in grandfather age) -- because i told them about my grandfather and maybe wierwille (but i don't think i told them about wierwille) -- just have that kind of problem what the f does that mean? -- anyway this is silly for me to go on -- and you know, i still think that someone who is a pastor of a church or of a people does have to behave in a god-like loving manner as far as the grandfathers go, ppppffffttttt what can i say? a pervert is a pervert but don't use god on top of that !!!!!!!

my nephew got married in mystic last year. we had a lovely time there visiting family you haven't seen for 16 years -- how wonderful!

i'm way too tired and fed up i do get the thing about being sexually abused as a child and being a target and the boundary thing etc. etc. i just don't buy into that being my fault for wierwille that's all i'm saying i did have enough sense to realize some things even back then this guy who is telling me otherwise - f him goodnight

i'm sorry but who gives a shhhhhhhhhhhttttttt

i'm way too tired to deal i know better than anyone oh never mind

no, i actually think he was referring to a shrink

i had no idea what he was talking about with pia i just listened to her on youtube i've been through the entire john bradshaw series and many more but anyway enough of this already this guy i think said he was a sexual addict and got healed, i'm not sure he did tell me in his email to see his link on the debunking of wierwille, but i didn't go there he also told me he would tell wierwille adult kids about what happened to me and i told him i didn't care one way or the other

what happened with wierwille was because i'm co-dependent ?

the person who said this did write back yesterday i asked if they meant if they thought injustices toward me made me feel special they said: i just wrote back "shut up" -- that was my reaction

he probably did have a problem with his own father what was all that bs about him turning to the wall or some such crap i mean, who in the heck studies the position a person dies in i don't know maybe it means something to someone but if you're dead, that's it

i just saw this on the open category and as i said i'm not buying it

thanks for all your kind advice

i don't think i'm buying it