excathedra

posted by wg

oh one more thing, even calling it a romantic or sexual relationship (especially the word relationship) is a big fat joke

you know... i'm just trying to describe my experience in a cult i am not saying it was any worse than any other female or male

that is what hurt so much being a non-entity (is that the word?) and it makes you doubt -- you know this "great person" telling you all about God -- it makes you doubt that there could even be a God so to speak -- at least who wants the God he's sharing when he's like he is that didn't come out right no i'm not talking to myself -- i hate long posts -- so i'm doing lots of little ones ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

but wait he was even worse when he knew you thought of him as a father figure, i mean this now, he still felt it was okay to prey on you it wasn't like a moment of passion or mistake or getting carried away, you know what i mean it was thought thru, planned, calculated, like with very little emotion or feeling for the person (me)

and let me quote one thing rev. pamela cooper white says in that article: ** i also thought soul stealing was a beautiful description

i didn't explain myself well because steam was coming out of my ears and i couldn't think clearly someone on that other thread referred to wierwille's sin as adultery what i'm saying it was SO MUCH WORSE THAN THIS simon you hit the nail on the head -- if he was widowed or single it would not have made it any more excusable -- that's more my point i often think a paper on spiritual abuse / power would have been more to the point of what was going on than the adultery thesis remember that chart in pfal, big X's, little x's oh never mind, i need coffee here read this, you'll get more where i'm coming from: http://relfrauds.www4.50megs.com/christian...ulstealing.html

I CHANGED THE TITLE OF THIS THREAD TO MAKE MORE SENSE (it was called, "wierwille was unfaithful to his wife.... gimme a break") it is so much more / worse than this even when the famous adultery paper came out, i was thinking about this [This message was edited by excathedra on January 29, 2003 at 2:26.]

stop it y'all you're makin tears come to my eyes

and then the bartender said, can your wife sing and dance or does she only know cursewords? simonsaysdothis, i've missed you and your wisdom from on high i wish i had known my second-cousin-twice-removed-in-the-word. and i really wish i had known by grandpa in the word -- wait! are you my grandpa or is it me or clarence.... were the victors named after their dadda in the word?

ohmygod pat i'm so sorry love, ex

pain is in the heart of the holder

pat's definitions: - A captive in servitude, any one in bondage, one who has lost all power of resistance - The state of being entirely under the will of another these are accurate in my situation, sorry i don't feel like explaining in greater detail as far as "sex" goes, i wouldn't call it that at all; i'll let you know if i ever think of the right way to describe it

ps. not god's wanker

ok the bus is traveling along at a comfortably fast steady speed. it's dark outside and silent, the middle of the night bus driver wierwille me me all alone and scared a few beers and total total zonker land some old man talking about god and his wanker slavery

jain come back pleassssssssssssssse adios god has led you here for all the answers hang on while i go get revelation

dear stayed too long, i too was brought up a guiltridden RC not to mention a very very tough childhood i was so happy to find a good loving true God father but the way ministry actually damaged me more in the way of guilt and self-esteem (as if i could get any worse) but now i relax, don't go to church, and i talk to God / Christ however i like and tell them the truth and question why God would be so crazy as to set this all up anyway, etc., etc. i have all these outrageous thoughts and i'm not afraid of them nor am i afraid of God there is way too much i do not understand but i'm cool with it for now i'm not afraid to doubt. i'm not afraid to tell God that if he is all love, he coulda fooled me, etc. yet i believe i am one of his own go figure eh ?

my mom was in the hospital not too long ago for the same thing -- very very bad case -- they had to cut out a lot of rotten poisoned part and sew the good back together mostly caused by stress because she has had a very hard hard life since her husband had a stroke, but thank God she is doing much better lots of love xoxoxoxoxoxo (sorry for borrowing your thread stayed too long, hugs to you too)

dear act2, i was thinking about you all weekend and praying for you and your family and your poor mom love, ex

i came up with one Lon Boner in Marietta GA if you do a people search in yahoo white pages, you'll find an address and phone number hope it's him :)-->

dear double 7 7 i have printed your post and am doing a word study on it thank you for your walk in this our day and time

oh notwayfer i'm so happy you're laughing!!! maybe that dog was ....ed i don't go to church crazy stuff attacked for "standing" attacked for petting a dog mama mia

eaglehouse i am laughing my head off and i can relate !!! why do we get attacked ? that's kindofa funny question when you think about it (no offense at all). one time not too long after i left the way, i went to a natural man party ha ha ha ha. anyway there was this big black lab who lived there. i went ever to say hello and pet him and the damn dog lifted his leg and started to pee pee on me. now don't tell me that dog wasn't possessed. talk about being attacked. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha (ps. i thought this thread was going to be about why do we attack each here? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha)

forgive me i wasn't trying to be clique-ish (sp?) everybody come to the party !!!! i noticed stayed too long spent some time in the 9th asylum so we might have fun stories to tell each other or see old buds, whatever

thank you troubled my only comment is i became very unhappy and dead inside in the way ministry ((((((troubled)))))) (((((((((ry))))))))))