excathedra

also, when i got on the coach with the cockroach geer and the slimy man of god, i am not sure what happened i know i was drinking with veepee at a little table and the next thing i remember is seeing myself -- like i was floating on the ceiling -- and looking down at him and he was on top of me -- and we were in the back -- on his bed -- puke i've always said it was like an out of body experience, but i don't know if it was because of drugs or because i went mentally bonkers -- not sure i am sure about the next morning before arriving at new knoxville. somehow i had gotten over on the side of one of those pull-out little beds -- and he came over and stuck his (barf) in my face. i played possum it was so awful i should definitely point out there were quite a few "counseling" sessions before this when i talked to him about being sexually abused as a child -- he did say i needed to be loved the way god intended -- by a real man of god -- but i would book -- get out of there quick -- told him i could not handle it man, that dark long lonely drive -- i also remember looking into these dead eyeballs (2) on top of me what a friggin jerk

ohmygod there is too much on here for me to remember but thank you abi for pointing out something very important -- people with good morals and good character do get targeted. skyrider, please think about this HUNDREDS? lol i just cry and don't know what to say about the suicides -- what a loss -- but what a relief for many as i see it speaking for myself as far as MEASURING what is worse. that's about the worst question i ever heard having been brought up roman catholic and my little brothers being sexually abused oh, i don't even want to go on but johniam, you really can't compare (or should i say judge) kris vs. the poor boy in the shower you're out of your league, sorry -- i agree with simon or socks or whoever said this ain't goin away and is this LIFE -- this EVIL LIFE -- what can i say? it's not just THE WAY it's weird hearing all about penn state now -- reminds me of being a college way -- lol

he can't respond at the moment, but i can tell you 'tis sad but truejesus christ and CG -- i don't like the comparison at all if my dear lord walked on water, great. if he didn't i don't care. he's the only one who kept/keeps me from drowning

dear tommyz, with all respect, when a dear friend of mine was beyond despair over in europe, mr. geer called me in the US and told me to forget about him, that he was packing "big ones" -- aka devil spirits it was absolute nonsense i'm sorry i don't have much compassion for chris i don't wish him ill, but i don't worry about him

thank you so much charlene. i don't think i read your story before. very much appreciated!

thank you, you kind souls i am in a bad place mentally or spiritually or whatever than i have ever been before i'm trying hard

i have no idea what belldang means i can't even remember the words i used but i am VERY certain THE WAY holds no power over me -- i think most of the crap on here is crap -- i am sure that my onw problems are -- you know -- what i have to deal with thank you

thank you mydearsocks really i think i agree with you but when i get depressed i see things in a weird way which i did this time love,e ps. i can't stand most of this belldang about the way on here i'm just a person with my own problems looking to talk to people

did your mom ever meet geer?

life has killed the dream i dreamed

that's nice for you, socks you "simply" don't allow it? you're very special nice word "conduit" i had to look it up

who cares about a pin?

why so, daggoo ?

i'm sorry naten please accept my apology

thank you so much for your PM, kit you are a very special person i do love you so much

you seem to be most interested in your own voice not unlike many people here i'm sorry if i'm mistaken see, for me, research and education is not my priority but that's me -- i could be way off base in fact, you should probably just ignore me

thanks kittie you know i care about you so much i don't feel i've been robbed from my relationship with my god and christ -- honest

too much research all smartie pants no heart sorry -- from a damaged wayfer

this clip reminds me of god/christ if i don't put it in properly, would someone with the smarts fix it? thanks

naten in some ways i think you would make a great wayfer

i'm a big believer in faith even also luck or rather grace never thought i would say that since i so disagreed with blind faith taught to me growing up in catholic church and thus one reason i went with the way

i can hardly stand reading the bible god knows me as christ does thank god, thank christ

like the lock box of the "father in the word" IF you are spiritual enough, you WILL keep it in the lock box of your soul

big snort perhaps he'll write about it in a book or make a tape

i guess our friends saw us at leaders, but we very much also saw ourselves as followers of the way international so you can see how confusing and hurtful....