excathedra

ps. i hate to beat a dead man of god but what do y'all naysayers think my positive spin should be ?

waydale is the very first time i publicly mentioned what happend to me and i also left there for almost a year (mini nervous breakdown) due to my own lack of how to handle the responses (sunbird et al.), which were, for the most part, tearing me to shreds for speaking such evil against the man of god former researcher, orange cat, my hero, remember that ? a lot more.... when i have time.... or courage..... how long was that site up, a year-and-a-half ? and i left for 8 months or so ? i wonder if i'm confusing waydale with greasespot. no matter

johnnyam you kind of upset me right therei have nothing to say about where he'll be in the hereafter. hell where will i be ? as far as the books brought to us by whomever, i told you i'm not concerned with bible stuff. just trying to show what a sleezeball wierwille was hey are you an arc ?

if you insist, king tut we were new little corps peoples all seated in those long tables in the campus center we had just finished our meal and l. craig martindale, at the head table, got a microphone in his hand and started to talk about i forget then our own dear marth leisurely lit up to enjoy her after-meal smoke martinale smelled something spiritually out of place he BOOMED on that mike "DO YOU SEE AN ASHTRAY ON THE TABLE?????!!!!!!!! she replied: "oh no, don't worry about it, i'll just use my plate."

man, it seems like yesterday did i really say that ? i'm so clever

hi sweetie !!!!!!!!!!! merry christmas !!!!!!!!!!!

how are all my dear friends at this nice time of year ?

thanks i'm sorry i emphasized the word "ONCE" because you know this guy was slick and i don't want to appear better than any other gal EVER there should be no shame when you're taken over by a spiritual leader i think it's my own shame that made me use that word "once" @(%* him and everyone who looks like him i'll talk to god in that hereafter about sin. until then i don't give a sh it one more thing, i have been "sinful" and such in other relationships. veejerkoffpee just doesn't fit in that category. how dare anyone think he should be put in the peer thing

i miss dovey

i believe he's serving time down the road from me i may go in and undershepherd him

oh shut the hell up allan

the biggest reason it hits my nerve is because i wasn't a mistress - the term actually (for me), in this context, is insane please don't be offended but i don't care much about the bible, adultery, fornication point of view my thing is about being a teenage girl, freshman in college, and having a "pope" come in the flesh at the 12th session, after hearing about him for months and months as the greatest most loving man of god and "father," oh god do i have to go on ? do you have a couch i could lie on.... :) anyway, i experienced a few years of handholding and counseling on the coach, and spilled my guts, and he did tell me how much god did not intend for me to be sexually mistreated as a child but THEN he said he could heal me with the REAL love of god so you see, he phrucked with my head BUT even THEN i didn't buy it (thank you, mom) and ran away crying and confused but eventually he got his way ONCE because i was not in my right mind he never came after me again after that time. it was either the conquest thing or i was such a horrible lay - most likely the latter since i didn't participate -- as far as sins and all that crap, i could care less i just want you to know what the guy was really like

i don't think he understood love at all from my experience

no that's ok, jk thank you, i can look it up too. i think he refers to a couple of things. one i believe was that wierwille admired hitler and said he ruled with fear. and that's what he was gonna do because he saw that love doesn't work. something creepy like that. and i know he said more to jim.

we really lucked out this year. got a parking lot $80+ douglas fir (i think) for $40 it has twinkly mulitcolored lights with matching star on top we voted not to do ornaments this year. too busy, too much work, too much hockey, too much everything. i'm THRILLED santa will put multicolored candy canes on it on christmas eve, i'm sure it looks very pretty as the only thing lit in the living room even without ornaments or tinsel o christmas tree o christmas tree much pleasure doth thou bring me

Edi ???

not to mention using your position and authority as a "loving" "man of god" and then ah forget it

jkboehme, did you put in your posts anything jimmy doop said in his book about wierwille talking about hitler ?

i have a headache

((((((((((( topoftheworld )))))))))) i wonder all the time too. i remember this green card back about 30 years - promised i would get my answers maybe the abused and screwed will inherit the earth whatever that means

oops that's what i meant re-possessed, it's returning to its own vomit :)

victim mentality oldies ? you s uck i mean your opinion s ucks

god had someone witness to me so i wouldn't end up a heroin addict lying on the street in newark or somewhere and then i never would have had my son and i wouldn't be here talking to you so he loved me enough so i could be abused by veepee and add that on top of my list of childhood crap oddly enough, as they say, my eight siblings never joined the way and they are still alive and well and raising happy healthy children duh (i'd like to add an "s" on that word "other" in my title, but i don't know how to)

ok i don't know what time frame this fits but i was at emporia and placed in a group where we would go underground or in the wilderness or something "together" we might start out with a full tank of gas but we would end up on foot we bought silk sea sponges for tampons (gross) you wash them out and reuse them i had to find a place we would go but i couldn't tell the person about the secret of why we were coming (some takeover or end of the world) so i called my dear dear friend and sponsor. she had a farm and i thought that would be a good place when i called her, i said something like, can we come there? and she was like, what ? who ? when ? i said i can't tell you, but can we come there ? she loved me enough to say yes but what in the hell could she be thinking ? i said something like, i can't tell you, but trust me ohmygod this is too weird i also had a very expensive backpack called a malpack - more abundant living pack or something like that - i always get it wrong, not good with those abbreviations. i had candles and rope and all kinds of stuff that i did not know how to use in my mind i was saying - when the enemy comes for my death, you know the word or whatever the alternative was, i'm going to say, shoot me now..... i'm not a good survivor they were talking about seeing your mother eating out of a garbage can and somehow that was related to your commitment to the word but i forget it was too creepy i think i blocked it, especially the part about my dear mother holy christ igotout remember when i called you about this ?

merry christmas engine