excathedra

ahhhhhh but do they whisper sweet nothings in your ear ?

thank you shifra

"celebrate" is a strange choice, in my humble opinion i'm didn't mean to "reprove" anyone for having a good experience, but it came across that way i think i said i was trying to figure things out..... and my saying "people got hurt, people died, etc." sorry. ken died, rochelle never recovered and killed herself, toppie got raped i guess that's enough for me "a person died, a person commited suicide, a person got raped" oh man. i know god cares (i'm not saying anyone here doesn't). it's just that it was such a great cost (like dooj said), so i felt weird telling how well i did some days i feel that way, yesterday was one of them

your empathy overwhelms me i myself am trying to understand so much of this i'm glad god blessed YOU -- that "they" continued this program or segments of it, disgusts me -- ps. i'll shut up, i'm trying to look at this as a christian thing, my bad glad god took care of some and not the others

outward bound was ordained of god ?

it is too late for certain dreams

thanks shifra i'm happy you're back ps. could you repeat what kind of praise is good for a kid ?

i agree i cannot understand where someone could see it as a good thing i had a VERY good experience but you know what -- real people died, real people got raped, real people had toes cut off, real people took their own lives, real people got HURT so what does my little "blessing" have to do with anything ???? i'm trying to figure this stuff out..... i don't THINK i was special or had my needs and wants parallel these are things i may just have to bring up at that "bema" place..... until then, my heart will go on crying (remember that song "until then")

i haven't read this thread but i hope you get some links, hooner, or do a search on LEAD any positive experience i may have had is really not worthwhile knowing everything i know

love you, cool

i see what you mean, shaz at least when i suck as a mom, i admit it to my son of course and i ask forgiveness

i wanted to go back home and help my family. i know that's not a career, but i'm sad i missed that chance i majored in business administration and minored in psychology i was thinking maybe human resources i don't know..... then there are times i wanted to teach. and times i wanted to be a school secretary so i could help kids on the sly ;) in my past, i also wanted to be a nun and a nurse and a peace corps volunteer -- i wouldn't mind being a private detective either, but i would probably get too involved emotionally

catcup, i love summer, because you come here :) how do you think having already been abused fits in to all this ?

thanks java today my friend co-worker (never been wayfer) told me she could not imagine me sitting there being told what to do in a cult !!!!!! i told her i dream of going back in the same situations and telling them what i think !

i'll have to go look at catcup's thread is self-esteem mentioned ?

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha good one !!!!!!!!

it "seems" to have gotten worse since i left but maybe not really -- it's always horrifying to be shamed and humiliated, blatant or not

ah yes people do sin

kids are pretty darn smart. i look forward to meeting your smart girl if she chooses to post here

let me think about that bumpy for now search for one without a remote you know in his hand

makes me sick ((((((( bow )))))))

i'm speechless well almost, do they have men dolls ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha h aha

so does rosie posie have a computer ? maybe she would like to share

that could be a trick of the adversary