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even on the given day, it doesn't work for me
part of my life is filled with purpose and meaning
i feel seriously alientated from just about most most people, but not the most important person in my life (my son)
i don't know about forgiveness, i think i'm okay with it, i don't feel any anger inside, mostly sadness
and finally, my hope is the hope about the future that we don't see yet
ps. i don't think my vote on the "relatedness" thing would have worked either
sowwy