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oldiesman after reading what you said to sunesis, i will never look at you the same way. i think i said something like that recently, i just didn't know i could feel even more strongly about it, but i do

thank you shell, i love you

thank you alfa and my apologies if my post hurt him, i really didn't mean for it to some of this gets confusing for me from the least perfect one, ex ps. dot, thanks. again, no offense meant. i just heard there were some "stories" in his book, not like twi needs any..... ha ! i should read it, i know, i'm wrong. i shouldn't have said anything sorry

hi ghost and shift nice to see you. i'm fine with wherever you're at love,ex and the above posters mwah

hi danny i can't tell you how happy i am to see you i don't know if this question fits in but who can intellectualize jesus christ ? love also goes for you all

wow seth thank you for your reflections you are a wonderful man

happy birthday and many more !!!!!!!

freeone thank you for posting sky watcher thank you for posting -- oldiesman i'm sorry but i think you should have gone drinking and rubbing with that old piece of sheet

many thanks for words of encouragement from you all i'm not sharing for attention i woke up this morning with my heart in my throat wondering if 12 hours hadn't passed so i could run and delete my posts and actually, i had time to delete them, and didn't yea me !!!!!!! also, i think i meant i have nothing to "gain" by lying not "lose" but either way thanks again

honestly simon, i don't know i don't know if i trust karl and i think del was pretty f'd up (me as well) BUT what i know to be true is still true and that includes a suicidal college friend of mine who was part of the "got me in the word" she went on a hush-hush trip to HQ in '74/'75 her breakdown thoughts were due to doing wierwille and allen on hunting trips to pa could give more details but not in the mood i love you, btw

you guys are the greatest!!!!!! you have no idea how much i love hearing you talk about yourselves !!!!!!!! -- okay just another little brag moment since this is where i come for love ha ! mac's in 8th grade (just made cutoff, almost was in 7th) the sophomores (sp?) on his team ASKED for him, meaning one of the kid's dad's is the manager and they told him to pick him in the draft!!!! i have to tell mackie how good he is or i'll just let him read these posts mwah a million times mstar hiway rocky simon (long time no see, you) i think baseball is great like you guys --- they said the other teams weren't stealing as much because of the mackster

dear oldies, if you have a shread of decency, just say rest in peaceful sleep sandy, and never come back on this thread okay ? is that too difficult ?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=lBwUkPYzjKs

oh yes the secret dance no doubt you're telling the truth, wing

ps. whoever might read this, why would i lie, what have i got to lose at this point ? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha rascal, don't worry about me, my mom loves me want to chat rascal or anyone else ?

a bunch of fecking perverted men who hit the lottery ppppppfffffttttttttttttt

he approached me (craig) he said something like "i hear our girl is coming in this weekend" i said she's not OUR girl and i forget the rest -- i also told dear old martindale after wierwille bit the dust that it was time for him to do the right thing i guess i could this way because i was by default in the secret society but not by my choosing and i'm thinkg now how crazy it all was just like the rest of my life thanks for listening

ps. it was our interim year together we talked when we came back in residence and then later when i was on staff, she came to visit, actually i think craig called her in (like other people i've known, one girl suicidal who wierwille called in) but that's when craig told her to stay clear of me it may have been because when i heard she was coming to HQ i told craig to leave her alone (knowing what i did about our interim year) i haven't seen many gals talk about this and i can't blame them but i want you to know, anyone reading or like oldies, i'm not lying thank you

there was a lovely girl, a friend of mine craig went to visit her on her interim year and she gave him BJs and talked to donna on the phone while she was doing this she told me about it and i can't remember what i told her (honest) but i think i tried to rationalize or help her with this a few years later i tried to speak more honestly with her (i was still f'd up) but then he (craig) told her she couldn't hang out with me or be trusted because there was something wrong with me it's a long sad story but you get the gist maybe i don't know

but i am sorry beyond speaking because i did try to explain it to someone once can my heart ever break anymore ? maybe

thanks love you

ps. i guess i started it

i love you mstar. i NEVER yell when HE'S doing anything (GOD FORBID) i just pace :) i yell at other times and he gives me the evil eye a real old man ump was telling me about his injury (from the game we were playing ) and mackie told me "mom, stop" i didn't start it. i was just asking how the old fella' was doing after he got hit really bad..... ha ! i'm an embarrassment i guess no matter what -- also, another father guess whata he said last game "he's got his head in the game" and you just said that i'm PMing a song to you love, ex

disclaimer : have not read thread i think i might have been a member of the secret agenda society please not to excuse myself but i fought against spiritual idea of sexual healing BUT i also tried to explain it away !!!!!! the reason i would have compassion toward some people maybe in it is because of my own case with much confusion and lack of boundaries due to past if this doesn't make sense, i'm sorry -- ps. i'm 51 now and i would kick their ever-perverted a s s es

awwww thank you jeff and socksie and anyone whoever acknowledges me i don't always go back and read stuff after i post or it takes me a while i'm good