excathedra

i don't know tz. i'm sorry to see it go. it was one of my favorite videos

thank you brainfixed, i couldn't agree more (don't let garth see this thread ;) he doesn't believe one can wash a brain) -- definitely definitely what you say is clear to me -- also coming from an abusive background and welcome !

glad his cause isn't serving a perv

that's why i'm not blogging

dictor and howdy doody did more than hunt for pheasants when they came to the cat home i ended up living in

i just don't understand, but it makes me worry of course

also, hope this doesn't weird you out, but i wanted to say BIG HUGS bolsh

i don't know where to write about this, but i had a recent nightmare about one of the gals who undershepherded me looking back, she kind of "offered me" in an unspoken way to the limb leader and to veepee of course i didn't get it at the time, but i sure do now she got ordained, and i know for damn sure another one got ordained who dot talks about -- i wonder if that was a reward -- "bring me virgins and i give you the big prize of ordination" how gross -- when i posted to one of them on the way corps site of john r's you know, she asked me how i was doing, and i responded that i still haven't gotten over the sexual abuse/assault of veepee, she deleted it from her page :) -- i had a thought of starting a blog over there about what it's like to be taken for a ride on the coach but so far i've chickened out

yuck, some of them are, aren't they ? i "kind of" remember being like that, but not exactly i felt skeeved (sp?) by being an advanced class grad who wasn't getting revelation, by being a corps grad who was no different than anyone, etc., etc. not to mention the confusion and weirdness about old men screwing young women in the name of god blah blah blah also, i wasn't brought up as a wayfer so that could make a big difference

mstar for you

yeah yeah yeah we all make mistakes when you think you're doing god's will, it changes things duh okay i apologize to anyone i ever looked at or got f'd by soww y

i personally would love to hear -- from former leaders -- how they were a victim of the veepster -- and not just how they tried to help victims hope that makes sense i'm not saying that in a judgmental way at all. honest question.

didn't say THE fox, eh ? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

thank you all for your replies to this thread and linzee, thank you (sniff) "I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed." my mom's life story in so many ways too difficult for me to expound love, me incidentally, my mom has a BEAUTIFUL voice and soul sorry for derail so many of us had dreams....

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/8006786.stm

plus it made my mom really happy (that's how i heard about her) and that was worth it ALL ----- is this staged ? and the other interviews ? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8KsF2X6oe-k...feature=related

oh, all this staging stuff, sad but i'm still glad susan boyle got a platform i knew this song from les mis and i felt like socks about the lyrics. touched my heart in a big way

oh, okay, i see

wtf is innocence or the 60s 70s 80s 90s 00s people believe what they want i did as much as it was screwed up i'm done analayzing it although i might share some of the weird sheeet that happened with that old man who was the man of god in my day and mind

hey d. mwah -- if i found my wow pin or corps pin, etc., i think i would i say -- "oh yeah, wtf was i thinking ?"

who knows who cares i know i'm not supposed to say that kind of thing not trying to diminish you. you might be doing a research paper and if you're really trying to figure something out, i'm sorry

wow and so amazing that you posted this on easter sunday -- kind of like a resurrection of you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfQAIIPX8SI

i don't belong here, i'm not doctrinal i submit to god and my savior :)