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Johnny You can take off all the time you need, but your gifts and talents still lay within you. When you are ready, God will be there to explore the rest of the things he has planned for you in this life. Johnny, like you I went for years without really moving in the vein in which God called me to walk. I still loved him and prayed, but I actually asked God NOT to see the things I used to see, not to expect me to set them straight, and that I had no (let's say) exhortation left with in, as I could barely keep myself jazzed enough to get through a day. I had no excitement left to evangelize. I declared bankruptcy. Over the past couple years, I have found myself at a level of need that was over the top. I injured my hand and no medical group was able to help me, no nutritional package, no creams, nothing. I found myself with the only avenue around and that was God. I would sing “Jesus loves you” to my actual hand and told it that Jesus would heal it soon. He did through a powerful prayer, prayed by a man in Thessalonica Greece – who called me in Atlanta Georgia. I hungered for the power of prayer in healing. I spoke with Tim Sullivan, who used to work side by side with BG Leonard. We talked about prayer and the fear I had to minister healing because I was paranoid that it would not work. He asked why? I told him back in the day, I had a girl who had been raped by her Dad, and was so timid she sat with her coat on in Twig, covering her ever-growing belly. I prayed for her child and I saw it and told her it looked fine after her father had beaten her. I found out there was no baby. She was not pregnant, just crazy. She increased the size of pillows under her coat. Tim asked me what I saw. I told him the first time I prayed it was like an x-ray. I could see – through it. He said, “Like it wasn’t there?” “Yes. Then I prayed and it was a cartoon that winked at me.” He said, “Like it wasn’t real?” I cried and he told me I missed the symbolism. Not something I recall being covered in the advanced class or the corps. And if it was, it was not done well enough for me to understand it. But halleluiah I have learned it now. Once I realized, God did not let me down; my hunger began to grow again. When you loose the fear (or what ever is holding you back) and get the hunger, God will guide you to all you ever hoped to do for him. When you are ready, he will not dissappoint you. I love you. edit - for a typo

Raf, Word Wolf, Zixar, Bluzman, Garth, Ron, Mark, Rock, Mr. Hammoroni, Onephile, Rum Runner They add depth to my perspective. Strong men with a variety of opinions, who always teach me something The thing these threads do is bless people, but I always fear those I have forgotten at this moment. Many many poster have blessed me Hose a rockin, Orange cat, Alpha cat, Out in 88, Al Poole, Joe Pasqualla - I miss you when you are not here you have added much to discussions Groucho He is so funny and yet very tender with a line in the sand to stand for ethics and morality Exwaycorps Your excitment is contagious Waysider, T-bone, Dmiller You add so much of yourselves, the place would not be the same without you Excath You keep people honest, when they want to pick up the rose color glasses. Templelady A woman who is as Strong as she is kind! So thankful for your recovery Dovie - whom I miss, with her Doxxies and her playfulness Wrds and Wrks Son of the Master My love for you bth is huge. Thank you for all your sharings, support and love Notta I just adore the way you splash on the screen with raw honesty and a pure heart Eyes Your posts always put so much of yourselve out there, I feel as though we went LEAD together and the shooting range Water buffaloe I miss you. I always loved to hear your views KIT SOBER The sweetest, most supportive, loving friend anyone could have at GSC

Paw I have never seen anyone who had to put up with so much crap and continue to do so without getting a dime from most people here. He has patience I could never hope to have. I have seen people call him names, be rude, and go off on him with lies, and he still opens the cafe each day to offer hope and healing to clents who may or may not be thankful. That is love. Bow You would have to know her personally to appreciate how rip roaring funny she is. She is cheery and delightful. She has a good ear to listen and a big heart with which to love. Shellon She is another one who is a hoot. She is intelligent and has a very giving loving heart. I enjoy her immensley Catcup Is so open with her life and her heart it is hard to remember we are merely writing on a board. She makes me comfortable. Whe wrote about her cat Ernie, which brought me to tears, and her love for him still warms my heart. Washington Weather What a well rounded wonderful woman who brings a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart. (Love you!) Act 2 For her kindness and love. She reminds me of someone who is so sweet and pure, I feel as though I am having pie and ice cream Polar Bear I am unclear how a person so warm and inviting can live in such a cold climate.

Suda She is so intelligent! She can see both sides and walk in peace through a crap storm. She is an ethical, good woman. She takes time from her busy day to try to "create world peace". She is clever, has a great sense of humor, and always goes the extra mile in understanding. Socks For his humor and insight. When he speaks I always listen. He is funny, kind and intelligent. You move me to be a better person by your gracious example.

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Johnny When I was still new in TWI, my cat got gangrene in her leg. The vet said they had to remove it. I asked him to wait until tomorrow -- I wanted to pray for healing. He told me the cat may be dead by then. I took her home and I prayed, prayed and prayed. Took her to the vet, the next day, and he told me she had been healed I am into learning as much as I can about healing. I went to the healing rooms in Atlanta today and they prayed for me. It was with the zeal of the old days. I will explain more in a PM if you are interested Here they are in your area -if you are interested AlaskaHealing Rooms Alaska Healing Rooms - Anchorage Healing Rooms of Alaska, Inc., at Anchorage * IAHR State Advisors for Alaska - Gary and Paula Allen Directors Gary and Paula Allen Location: 4300 B Street, Suite 505 Anchorage, AK 99503 Telephone: 907-258-2134 E-Mail: mail@healingrooms-ak.org Web: www.healingrooms-ak.org Hours: Thursdays 6:00 - 9:00pm https://secure.healingrooms.com/index.php?

Rascal She is a pitbull with a good cut of meat. When she knows that she knows something she will not let go of it. (Nor should she) She is full of energy. Yet, there is a peace and a calm around her to which even the animals respond. She is fire and water(falls). She defends the underdog and will draw fire away from them so they can heal. She is a very wonderful woman. Charged and gentle. She is a picture of wholeness.

Oldies PM me your phone number and I will call you this week.

Since this thread SOM and I have reconnected. I am enjoying a friendship with he and his wife!!!

I love this analogy! Its gotta be the best one --- ever.

Dooj I thought it was Mobile Abundant Living. I had that back pack for a few years, the boots and all. I wonder if it has to do with the talks about making Canada, Mexico and the US without borders - one big Country type thing. (treaties to be signed by the end of summer and go into effect by 2010) (Links on I want to be a Canadian thread thingy) I wonder where you run to if all those places are involved. Are they all going to live on the farm?

One at at time for me as well, Suda and thank you Sunesis: She speaks from a position of first hand knowledge most of the times. She presents her facts in a logical calm matter. And she usually only gets involved in the whole "sex" threads when she feels she can help keep the balance of things from tipping toward the cult. She is level headed. She is experientially educated in the things of which she reports, and she has the guts to report them. I like her brave heart and her kindness, while she draws a line in the sand. She is gutsy but still all woman.

Sunesis: I think a lot of this was brought out 7 years ago In, Did VP start out bad or become bad I believe we had additonal contributors back then, but I agree with you I wish Ralph D would pop in like he did on Waydale

Sunesis: Jimmy told me the same thing over dinner at a Mexican Place in San Diego

Thanks for the reports! Vickles - Gee you could hear it? Scout - WOW

This was sent to me by a believer here. I thought it might speak to you as well.... Here is a composite of the words that have come during Tuesday morning prayer over the last month. The Lord is saying: "Little by little - this is how I will advance you into the fullness of your destiny. I can reverse your losses and secure your future, but you must work with Me in new ways! I will establish your boundaries and renew your vision, but you must see as I see. I am re-knitting your emotions. Fragmentation that you have experienced in the last season should not keep you from experiencing My wholeness in your future! Do not fear, for I am proceeding and bringing you forth to a new place. The re-knitting of your emotions and realigning of your desires will set My motion in you. This will direct your feet from the wrong ways and cause you to see the pointers and signs for your right path. Do not resist the needle of mending, for I am re-knitting, finding holes and knitting again. Follow Me! It is mandatory that you learn the word 'Come' and follow Me. For many will turn aside to seek other ways this hour. But you must follow - even if the path is rocky and steep. Don't try to keep Me from taking you to the 'There' that I have prepared to give you. Also, do not try to keep Me from going to the place that I need to go to prepare the way for you. I am not like you and do not want to rest in the comfortable place that you are now occupying. Submit your emotions so I can re-knit them. You will gain new strength to resist the enemy when you submit in a new way. You are striving in areas that are not My concern. Submit, resist, and then follow Me to the best that I have. This is a day for cleaning out your old garments and getting ready to exchange your best for His best. For now you will go to war for your inheritance and only wear the garments that will secure your future! The enemy is contending to withhold your next robe. He would love to leave you naked in the shame that has invaded your atmosphere from your past mistakes and hesitations. But there is a robe floating in the heavens above you that I long to bring down to clothe you for the days ahead. This robe will cover your shame and produce favor. The accuser is firing words and these words are knocking the robe from left to right so that it cannot come down for you to wear. Stand still and see Me work in the midst of your accusations. When you are the least expectant, you will sense My Delivering and Covering Power in your midst. The song of victory is within you. Do not lean on your own understanding or let go of this song of deliverance. Ascend with your song and this will be your weapon to gain dominion in the heavens above you. MY Word is very nigh and closer to you than you know. Fear not looking back for a moment to gain perspective on what is blocking you ahead. There is an anointing to complete and shut the mouth of the accuser. ' I Am the 'Keeper of the Garment'. Now is the time to war for the robe that you will wear. This is a robe called 'Completion' and is necessary for your building process. As the enemy is trying to stop your building process, I am now causing you to war to clear the heavens, so you can wear your robe of building into the field of operation that I have for you. The blueprint and pattern for the future is now entering the present. This mantle must be put on for you to build My pattern. This robe will not have any of your insecurities and weaknesses of the past. I cannot have your past iniquities assimilated into the foundation that I am asking you to lay. Foundations are shaking and the bridges that connect you to the past are falling. I am laying new foundations and building new connected paths into places that you need to go. Do not allow the enemy to knock you out of this building process or you will be held up for 16 years in a land, and another will have to build on what you have laid. Define your building sphere. Lay a strong foundation and then add your sons and daughters that will become My prophets for the days ahead. For floods have come into the earth and caused the rivers to rise. Now is a time to look at the natural and act in the Spirit. Call in the flood of My presence, the flood of joy. I long to establish an oasis in every city, state and nation. Call forth the oasis of joy in the midst of dryness. The rising floodwaters have caused the ground to become pliable for remolding My plan. Foundations are shaking and routes are being rearranged. Many fields have been filled with beasts. The beasts of the field have been robbing the joy of My people and blocking them from entering into new places of harvest and increase. The rising waters are causing enemy structures to be exposed. Begin to move past what is holding you in captivity and keeping you from coming into the new field that I have for you. The new field is calling you. The new field is calling My presence in. Come into the new field that is beginning to awaken. The land is shouting out, 'Rescue me! Rescue me!' It is My time for you to enter into a new field. It is My time for you to branch out! You have maintained and established one field, but new fields are calling. New ideas are beginning to be birthed. New visions are calling. I am opening up new fields for you. Define your fields and enter in. I am sending My presence into the dark hearts of captivity where Baals, Dagons, and Ashteroths have ruled. I will cause the headship of that which has been holding My harvest fields to break, tumble and roll. The heads of rule are changing. I am causing My presence to dethrone that which has been ruling the thoughts of My people. In the midst of dangerous times, call for My presence to flood that which has captivated and watch the headship of the enemy fall. Sounds are beginning to blend, harmonize and multiply. The sound of My procession is beginning to be heard in the earth. Allow the sound to create confusion in the enemy's camp. This is a time to confuse the enemy that is in the field. Do not fear your enemy that is in the field. I will go before you and then call you in. The trees of the field are filled with sound. They are filled with My instruments. I am waiting for you to go and remove the tambourines that have been hung in the trees and take back the sound that has been captured in the fields of harvest in the earth. These sounds will cause the iniquity and bloodshed that has lain dormant in the fields to be released. Where the fragrance of death has been, life will abound. Call forth the captured sounds throughout the fields of harvest. There are "Black holes" in people you have ministered to and you know others that have not been able to break out of their past woundedness. Send the sound into those black holes. My Children will dance in the light, for My sound will rise in the midst of the night. The harvest is plentiful and I am sending forth the sound. Praise Me! Send the sound onto every university and college campus in your region. The sound will cause the headship that is ruling to fall. Send the sound into the marketplace. For all of those who are going into the marketplace ask Me for a rising up of My presence so that they have a greater favor and influence than any of those around them. I will prepare you in secret. I have secret passages that are opening for My people to come into. Even now there is divine training that you must have. Experiment with Me. Taste and see that I am good. Experiment with My power and watch Me develop authority within you. You have been held in one field and have created captivity in that field. I am beginning to create a procession that will cause other fields to be invaded. Lay down your expectations in one place and let My expectations rise in you. Let My expectations lead you. I am moving you into divine positioning. This is a time of divine replacement so that I can create the sound of victory and cause the field to rejoice. I am causing some to vacate and others to be positioned. The divine replacement has begun. I am moving people. My "People Mover in the earth" has been activated. This is a time that MY chess game is beginning and I am strategizing over the harvest fields in the earth realm. I am releasing strategy and moving My pieces in place. The winning move is at hand. Be a part of this divine replacement that I have created in the earth. I will now set positions in places. Let My Spirit come down on you. I am anointing you with favor to move into markets and ministries. Your King is waiting to come in! I must see you proceed into the places of darkness that you have resisted. For the King to come into the field, you must go forth and prepare the way. It is you that I am waiting on, not you waiting on Me. I am waiting on you, so be willing to go into the field. Be willing to embrace the change that I have today and you will see the change come forth on your way. I am the Deliverer who will come down to sit in your midst. Lift your head up. Let My light come down upon you. Decree that the lion who is lurking and waiting and sounding his accusations will not be able to devour. You will be so filled with praise that he will not be able to bite. He is like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. The lion that is waiting to devour you, the words that are coming against you, will not be able to overtake you. Shout --by My blast your enemies will perish! Loose that shout! By the breath of My nostrils, your enemies will be consumed. Be anointed with the fragrance of the pomegranate and then blow healing, overcoming and success into that new field. The roaring of the lion, the voice of the fierce lion, the teeth of the young lions are broken. The old lions perish for lack of prey and the stout lion's whelps are scattered abroad. Decree that the old lions of your past that have been rising up and trying to devour you, old lions which have been guarding the field and its territory, must now perish and let go of the field so you can enter in. The old lions, old fears, old insecurities that have been keeping you out of your field must let go of your new field. Strong lions have captured and marked the field and created a stronghold. Now go into the field and mark My boundaries and say, 'My God is now entering my field.' Re-mark the boundaries! I AM causing the roar that has turned you back at the gate to be disbursed. I AM sending a blast into the field that I am calling you to go into. That blast is causing the enemy to go into confusion. Re-mark the four corners of your boundaries and declare that you are retaking your territory. Go back to your churches, your businesses, your cities, the universities, the schools and all the places I am calling you to and re-mark those boundaries. Declare that where the lion has roared, that his voice has been stopped and the Lion of Judah has claimed the field. Tell those in the Washington DC area that they need to go in and re-mark that government field and say, 'Where the lion is roaring, God's voice will be greater!' Go to your state capitols and the governments of your nations and decree that My voice will be greater than the voice of the enemy. Declare that My voice will begin to penetrate the darkness. The angel of the Lord has encamped around you and you are under My wing. Taste and see that I AM good. Blessed is the man who trusts in ME. Let trust rise up in a new way and you will begin to feel My covering over you." http://gloryofzion.org/news20070802.htm

You need not make a commitment to him right now, or ever, take the pressure off. HE is keeping his commitment to you. He will never leave you or forsake you. He has heard you He will wipe the tears from your eyes. Let him love you, now this time really get out of the computer and take care. Let the lord's promises to you be realized, it is okay to yell "Where were you?" He will answer you. Its okay. It hasn't been but it will be okay. Not what happened, but your future is going to be okay. It is okay Love you... Now get off the computer, let the healing wash over you like the ocean on a hot summer day.

Excath You are still here, leave here for now.... Let the other stuff go. The people here, the insensitivity, let it go God will deal with them accordingly, they have their own issues from which they need to heal. Focus on God. Don't let your mind chatter you back to how you have been treated here, let it go. You can deal with that later. Close your eyes open your heart and let God craddle you in his wanting, waiting arms. Let it all go. Listen to our God speak to your soul. Let the healing in. Let it in. Stop the brain chatter. Feel peace. God loves you. Let the long ago anger out. Breath in, let it out. Again. God loves you.

To Excath: Listen, do not look around you on this thread. Look up and behold the lamb of God who I believe has chosen this thread and this time to heal you. Who cares if it isn’t on the right day (the Sabbath) = the correct thread. While they strive to write down positive things about a long ago class, and bring up good things that God did for them when they believed the Bible, they are missing a healing that is taking place in your life. There is a book on healing by Smith Wigglesworth. There was this Vicar whom God had told Smith to go and heal. When he got there the WHOLE town was telling him it could not be done. So, Smith went in and prayed for this emasciated skin and bones man, who had been sick for years, prayed for without deliverance, and had given up. Meaning the environment was not really great to heal someone. But God broke through all of that communal crap and delivered the Vicar. Today, this is your time. On this Forum, in this thread to allow God to heal you. There are people listening. More importantly Jesus hears you and has seen your struggle. You were raped. Not by a stranger behind a bush, but by a trusted person of the cloth who offered to drive you to see your fiancé. You thought you would be safe. After all, HE knew you had a fiancé and were going to see him. You thought that meant he would not try again to seduce you, especially as HE and your fiancé knew each other very well. You take a drink and your mind responds differently than it EVER had. You cannot fight back, you go into a foggy world of black and white film that sputters and the timing is off and someone holds you down, it is the man you trusted. But why? You are unable to fight; your mind floats away protectively as your body is forced to have it happen. You see your fiancé and you feel guilty. You feel dirty. You are NOT responsible for what happened to you. You do NOT need to feel dirty or guilty. Right now in the name of Jesus Christ I pray the feelings of guilt and bondage away from you. In the name of Jesus Christ I tell those deceptive feelings they have to go. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray that your cracked and battered core be whole and that the need for any crutch for survival be replaced by Jesus our Lord. Look up Exxie. Feel the warmth on your face and in your heart. Feel the tingle of love. Do not question if God loved you it would not have happened. He LOVES you. You did nothing to stop his love, VP did it, and even he can not stop the love of God. It is not anything God EVER wanted to happen. HE let his son die on a cross at the hands of horrible people to deliver you this very moment. Let him be your savior again, let him take you away from the anguish this life has caused you, let him take you to the mountain top – a healed and a new woman. I pray this and claim this for your life right NOW. Thank you Jesus as your angels flock to her side, thank you Jesus as you pick up her shattered soul and build her into a new creature in Christ. Thank you as you will NEVER leave her or forsake her. Exxie, forget the crap around you, on this thread, anywhere. Look up and let Jesus fix your brokenness with his wholeness…. Take it in. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Jesus. Thank you. Get off this thread and claim deliverance. Do not care how the community responds – I don’t. Be healed sweet daughter, sweet flower of the Lord’s. Do not be embarrassed, do not respond right now, go soak up his love, let the anger out. Yell if you have to yell. Yell at the heavens for they will still love you. Yell at the memory and claim that you have over come it. Kick the wall, feel the release, let his peace wash over you. Be healed.

Vickles? Anyone hear anything? Who else is from that state?

I get how SHE feels Are you that self absorbed that you can't SEE that? Sorry Ex I said Apparently, I over stated their compassion

get it Excath A thread about PFAL which is inadvertently includes VPW cause he was the teacher..... And For years you have been blurting things out in the background like a frightened girl. Then, when you could not write it, or were yelled at, you would delete it, drink a beer because it was all so awful, and withdrawl. Finally, you have risen up enough to get it out on a page, and I know extra details of horror you still did not put in your testimony, and you are met with disbelief, disdain, cruel questions and then a big "to do" about derailing a thread. Yet, some of the same people who complained about your derail, which was your 1st stop to actually heal, are now feeling just fine about discussing golf. Your being raped by the Head of TWI was NOT important enough to be heard on a "derail", but golf is. The reason you cannot put it out there as a “thread” is because you cannot have it as the MAIN focus, but rather as an A- B story line within another thread. I do not think anybody gets that, and instead you have one of the Iams say she had to go through whatever it was 12 layers of garbage – that GARBAGE was the discussion of how this man you trusted, who taught you about Jesus, gave you a drink (suspiciously drugged) and raped you while you were on your way to see your finance. Instead, of anyone getting how you were finally able to fight back by saying what happened, you feel dismissed and less important than golf. I get it Yet, one on one with any of them in a face to face and I bet they would listen, comfort you, and let you heal. Face to Face I bet most woud have wept with you as your poured out ALL the details. Cyber world makes it easy to forget human fraility. In your shoes, I would have felt the same way

George My first gun was an uzi hand gun from Isreal. I could not handle it, I said to others, when I shot I looked like Elaine dancing on Seinfeld. I have since bought two 38 revolvers, a baretta tomcat, and baretta 9mm I have a taurus 9mm I had a LADY smith and wesson but it was too difficult to take it apart and clean, baretta's are easier. The guns are wide for my hand and the kick rips into the web by my thumb, I do not know what to do about it. But I do not want to derail this important topic

EWO I am getting rid of my guns and moving in with you! Thanks Wand W Act2 60!!!! Gosh, we are old enough to have 60 year old sisters -- how did that happen? Rascal I will look up that gun Aside You all may want to read my post on becoming a Canadian - we may need to be fighting for a different cause real soon! BNIS Is your avitar a gun? A gal shooting a fairy?

Bumpy That is a terrible way to live.