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Through the years I have watched people LOOK for partners here at GS. Seek partners elsewhere. Get divorced and quickly seek companionship, etc. I must be different, sicker, healthier or just came off of something very different from those that still seek... I feel afraid, alone and bedraggled. I did not get out of my relationship with the hope of finding something new... I know those of you who have bounced back and find it great for you. No judgement -- maybe I wish I could be there as well. But how many of you said "never again" The pain is not worth the risk? Why do you feel that way? I think in understanding it in others I may understand "it" in me. I have had it. Had enough. Eric Carmen sums it up Never gonna fall in love again I don't wanna start with someone new Cause I couldn't bear to see it end Just like me and you No, I never wanna feel the pain Of remembering how it used to be Never gonna fall in love again Just like you and me

Please pray for us -

I checked into Vanity press years ago, after the "houses" were not interested, but it was expensive.

Becky sure is hot about sin in others Has she heard of gluttony? Just curious as she pushes the kids hard... Do not ever recall hearing of her --- I felt bad for that little boy with the blonde hair crying his eyes out... I hope he finds peace

Was that blonde lady at the begining -- Was her tongue LAshunta.... Or is it me?

Hap It just makes me nervous I did not see ANY good reviews

See my computer hangs. So, the last entry I saw was my own, then I was entering the fact that I was going to buy it- when I hit enter here the other posts showed up. It has done that to me for years - must be my firewalls Anyway, I immediately called the company back and asked them to stop the transaction Then, I called the bank and they said I would have to let it go through and dispute it -- I said not if I go take the money out. I had it on a visa debit, then I was going to pay my actual household bill with my visa that is on its way through the mail CRAP I am taking the money out of the bank tomorrow and let it hit an empty account they said that will only cost me $22.00 I always got a commercial vaccum after all the normal ones died in a year. The commercial extra strong ones last about 5-10 years. Like an electrolux Oh rats I will go withdrawl tomorrow

Called the company and they are listed as an authorized dealer on Dyson. I am nervous, I do not have the money and I hate to charge but I have to vaccum with 6 dogs!!! Ya know? Oh Gosh, I hate spending money I do not have Oh boy... Here goes.... SAw your post AFTER I ordered it, crap

The refurbed one costs what a new one does on the link I was looking at. Sorry Anyway to find out about the company I linked to see if they are okay?

Okay how do I get to Amozon thru GSC? I do not see a link... am I blind?

I tried in the name of the company and got nothing I typed in the name of the product and KNOW it is good -- but buying on the net scares me - ya know Want to find out if they are legit Thanks - though My vaccum fell apart today - the guts fell out I noticed a big crack across it, makes me wonder what happened to it when I was not home - like maybe he used it in the basement and it fell? It is a mystery This company has good prices http://www.factorydirectsuperstore.com/Dys...CFQm4sgod_UluGg

Eyes Did you publish your book or were you picked up by a pulishing house? Curious. I submitted books before and it is very difficult to be picked up. Wondering the steps you went through. Thanks

Cindy I clicked on your name to send you a PM and it came up there is no such member... ?????... Anyway this may help Try calling Peachtree Natural Foods they have books at the counter to medically answer questions from Dr. McBarron Duke and the Doctor own it and have a radio show out of Columbus Georgia They answer all kinds of things holistically and medically. They may have something on their site

Is there a site to check out "net" companies BEFORE I get something? Now that I am alone I found some of the things I got in the divorce are not working I want to replace them cheaply but with wisdom as currently I am not rich Thanks

Congrats! After you wrote about your LEAD adventure - I kept thinking she needs to write a book. You write so very well. Congrats on your book. So, Is homosexuality a sin? No debate just curious after all the research what you found. My question has always been "Do you go to he ll if you commit suicide?" I cannot believe that God would stop loving someone even if they killed themselves but some believe it is a huge unforgivable sin. Then, where do you draw the line? Is it suicide if you have a terminal illness..? But I am running off "at the mouth". This is about congratulating you

Thank you He left this morning. It was bitter/sweet. It has been so rough, it was a relief, but all the hope of "fixing things," all the dreams, all the things that were"going to happen," drove off down the street with him. The Doc, I work for, was speaking to a client and they chattered about going to Europe with their spouses. I recall, when times were good; we planned trips, and I planned to take him to Ireland as a surprise as I tried to save money. As these people chatted -- I thought "We used to be PEOPLE." People with dreams, with plans, with old age in mind. We had history between us. Then, piece by piece it turned into silence, mistrust and loneliness. How lonely is it to sit next to a spouse who does not desire your presence? How stressful to search for "small talk" that will not ignite the flames of another argument? Which topic is benign and which has seeds to flare? To be cold and want the warmth of human touch but be afraid of another rejection? So, instead - you just sit there. Saying nothing becomes more safe than speaking, it is easier to reach for a blanket then the hand of potential rejection when seeking warmth... He'd have laughter on the phone with a caller (I did not know) and how I wished I could recaptured THAT between us... Then, drive myself crazy wondering WHO the caller was... He would have fought an army for me, with his bare hands, at one time, now I am afraid to reach for those hands. I miss the beginning -- all the awareness of the other person I miss the middle -- the growth and planting of things to come But I never want another end -- the destruction of all that has been built, the changing of the awareness you thought you had, the uncertainness of anything but failure. I cannot survive another one I KNOW he wanted to reach past the troubled waters that raced between us, but he did not know how. There were times I am sure he tried but they were probably days I had given up. I do not know anything quite so heavy as a broken heart. Too much to carry... So, he left this morning and God will have to swoop each of us into his arms and carry us for awhile, for we are too weak to stand in our humanness. May we each be filled by Jesus. Amen

I got a chuckle out of Jessica Simpson's marriage being in doctrinal... :)

I was born to two unbelievers. So, it is amazing I am alive. If their believing could kill me - (their fear) I would have been gone. I was called before the foundations. Somethings are just BIGGER than we are IMHO. At the age of six I witnessed to them. I went to church with the neighbors. Saw everyone going some place on Sundays and heard of "church" and God. My mom said most kids did not want to go, I wanted to go so badly I asked the neighbors!!!! Then, I went to Bible school each summer. I told my parents of a loving God and they did not believe. One day, after my mother had her third (I think) heart attack, she asked me if God could heal her. I was about 17 years old (pre-way) and nobody was teaching healing. I told her I did not know. She said she thought for sure I would believe that God could heal her..... She died soon after.... But I think she got born-again because of all the stuff I learned in Bible school. Soon after I got into pentecostal stuff and was a real Jesus freak. I still say "Praise Jesus!" Which was frowned on at TWI. The point is we give ourselves too much power if we think we can kill our kids by worry. God has got the whole thing in his hands. I do not know why some kids die. They seem to be gifts for a little while ----

Okay I recall being taught we can only BELIEVE for babies, people unconscience, and people who are not mentally "there" to believe (they used to call it retardation) So, how is it that if we can only BELIEVE for these people -- that the FEAR in the heart of the MOTHER killed her boy who was none of these things in the story of PFAL. CAUSE if that mother could believe her son into the grave then that to me is casting "evil" or a spell on him.... Which would be witchcraft..... Causing EVIL to happen to others by belieiving...... I do not think that mother had THAT much power in a world owned by God to believe her boy into the grave because she was overly concerned about him... Am I making sense?

I am reading Beauty for Ashes, (Joyce Meyer) started and stopped - it is so real to me and anyone abused in TWI might find it healing Or anyone ever abused period might find it healing

Thanks all!

I maybe gone for awhile Old friends: I will be paying for everything by myself with a very tiny job. My hubs is going back home to his family after our divorce in about 2 weeks. I will have to turn off the television (we are behind a mountain and need cable to view it) the phone, and the internet, plus my computer keeps flashing signs of memory failure…. God is still on the throne so I am sure he will come through with a weekend job for me! So, incase you do not see me for awhile I am unable to afford the net or chat with you all.. So, in April – if I am suddenly gone, thanks for all the years of good times. I will need prayer. I love you

Thanks you, I did not see this until now!!!! Love to you all!!!

MH I sure do love you. Thanks you so much

Thanks to everyone... Please continue to pray for both of us. It is a difficult time. I just keep repeating "behold the glory of the lord...." as I see him working all around this... Thank you Lord! God is everywhere helping us. Thanks for the prayers.