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DITTO THAT! VPW spoke on the psychological hoax that night and he was speaking of himself! I think my flashback was right on and according to the rise and fall of TWI,it was a tree with roots fried ,feeding us dead false "doctrine" false hope,false EVERYTHING.

thanks,i just want to make a statement that good seeds planted don't get destroyed,like that young nun sharing christ,it was just very dissapointing to get finally to a place in my life that i wanted answers and ended up getting hoodwinked by THE WAY INTERNATIONAL. it is hell coming out of sra abuse and then ,wanting to know truth and finding it counterfiet. I am not looking to join ANYTHING ,I am just saying that catholic nun planted that seed of hope in my heart . ,,AND I AM THANKFUL.

I heard a soft voice pierce thru the numbness of my soul. She was singing a song about Jesus. The sound of the guitar seemed to reach down and embrace my heart with a warm tenderness to a cold body. Her eyes sparkling with joy like candles dancing in the darkness of a beautiful home where one felt security and assurance and safety of heart. Once I felt this peace i knew it was something no one would or could EVER take away from me. It was a seed that was planted in my life, a ray of HOPE that would continue to grow as my life journey continued into a rainbow pf hope to encourage and strengthen me and build my faith with cords of spiritual fiber to network my inner soul.(in a true God) FATHER,SON AND HOLY SPIRIT. I was 7 yrs old life had not been good,i was a victim a satanic ritual abuse,and in this moment and time this young nun had made the greatest impact on my life! I wanted what she had,that peace..........the joy . i was seven and noone knew about the babysitters husband,who abused me,who buried me and drugged me, ofcourse i felt dissconnected and no where to turn,but i wanted God in my life and through the years i often thought about that day at school and how to get HOW TO REALLY REALLY get into the FAMILY of GOD! Years passed and i got older and shoved all that bad stuff inside and got into drugs like a lot of kids did in the 70s,but i liked them a little too much! It scared me,what i was doing to myself and my best friend had died and I was so angry and I WANTED ANSWERS. I wrote a letter to GOD because i had NO idea how to get a hold of this higher power and in it were my funeral arrangements and a suicide plan if I didn't get any answers by the time we moved to Tinker Air Force Base in OKLAHOMA. I was 17 yrs old then and wanted to start my life over,I was in college studying criminal justice,and started to party again like most college kids do, Coming home from school one day I picked up a hitch hiker and she invited me to a twig,she seemed nice and she told me it was a christian fellowship,a bible study........................and i said thats nice where is your apartment and i went home. Friday night came and I went to the bar as usual,my friend had to work late and i ended up walking inot a twig.buzzed with 28 wows watching a film called changed. I wanted that..that is what I wanted..i dove in head first and didn't look back..i thought i was HOME.

your NOT going to hell,and you don't have to endorse anythng either.

seth, talk about revelation huh,that is probably how he got the job! I met lcm once in okc our branch all bought osu shirts so we would match for some picnic or something and we gave him one and he didn't want it...i never did like the looks of him or the "vibes" just a creepy person who never made it in pro football so he had that athletes foot of the spirit..what a clown!!!!!! p.s. thank YOU FOR SERVING OUR COUNTRY DUDE.

stringing chairs omg i rmember that! I can't believe i did that too!

i like this too. Good writing!

i like this too. Good writing!

i went to catholic school.

I said that i like going to midnight mass buzzed,sure why not,christmas is a time to celebrate and rejoice with family and i like catholics,i am not a practicing catholic but i don't deny i was raised as a catholic and i just wonder HOW many people raised as catholics got into twi,i have met quite a few and how many people had never picked up a bible(EXCEPT at the Holiday INN only to put it back into the drawer)hmmmm that was me!

I love to listen to ANI DIFRANCO WHILE DRIVING. lOVE INDIE MUSIC AND 70S MUSIC.AND OFCOURSE BABY MOZART!

Me too,i also had a problem with the word integrity...we were just taught wrong or half wrong which is basically half foot lies,a cult running on empty. Remember in the wizard of Oz ,the witch writes in the sky SURRENDER DORTHY i even had a problem with that after i surfaced and got some therapy.

please see ice sculptures part two!

In 1959 and 60 the US government sent a group of ARMY ENGINEERS to Greenland. There job was to build a city inside the ICE SHEET. The city called CAMP CENTURY would serve two purposes. One was to protect the united states in case of attack,missiles could be hide in the tunnels of the ice. the other purpose was to gather information about glaciers and about living in extreme cold. Special plow cut rooms into thick ice.Tunnels connected groups of rooms. Corrugaled steel arches lined the ceilings to prevent melting and for support. Soldiars were staioned at Camp Century for several months at a time. They called themselves ICEWORMS . After they left scientist came to study the ice. ,the wals searching for clues about Greenlands past natural history. Each year,new snow pressed CAMP century about 1 and a half feet DEEPER INTO THE ICE. The walls also pressed INWARD because ice as thick as greenland ice sheet moves slowly,the scientist didn't worry about the ceiling caving in. THE BIGGEST PROBLEM WAS THE ONGOING PROCESS OF DIGGING DEEP DOWN INTO THE CAMP AS NEW SNOW ACCUMMULATED. Eventually,digging thru the deep snow to reach the camp became difficult. The camp no longer used has been buried by many feet if ice and has probably collapsed.(end of artical) As camp century was designed so are ice sculptures,in the heart and minds of a cult victim,not knowing the damage inviolved for the future adult life. With each new ice sheet digging for victims and rescue of that which is LOST INSIDE GETS MORE DIFFICULT(year after year) WITH windows and drapes shut so to speak not being able to speak about twi,not to breath the word cult around any co workers never mind your family,you can laugh it off and say yeah man i did some pretty crazy things when i was young (BUT YOUR NOT LAUGHING ON THE INSIDE)IF ....IF you try to go to a church they don't have a clue! (see symbolic thinking from me) the reaccuring dreams you had,people that remind you of someone,movies,food,cars and so forth,so if you keep the window shut and the drapes closed you will not heal...slowly OPEN THAT UP.this is a great avenue for that and for other people to learn what it's like,how you feel or NOT FEEL. Most of us already got out but their are a lot more still in even if they are out! They desire to be healed like you,like myself and its not a mirage...there is really an oasis out here,don't be tricked by the mirage of the direction of dissociation.decomposition and death ,..mimic your desires and your heart will take you there!

a yeeah..my wow brother was on a stupid fast drinking that green guk and was so exhausted he fell while going to the bathroom at night and broke his jaw! Had to get his mouth wired shut! Ofcourse..it was blames on an attack by those "DEBIL "spirits.

thanks man,their are some great artist who are paraplegics that draw with their mouths,i've seen tony melendez who has no arms play guitar with his feet!

This week our town is having an Ice Fest. Its a big thing over here. Ice is set out on main st and then the ice artist comes in with a chainsaw and chisel and goes to work creating beautiful stuff! The problem is keeping it from MELTING if the weather gets warmer. This is HOW i would explain cult life to someone who never experienced it from the inside. Children are a gift of from God(assuming the goal was to become a child of God in twi through pfal) and a child becomes an image of what the product is he is trusting. A syndrome is a set of symptoms charaterizing a disease or condition, This is not a condition of biochemical or heredity,this is an image formed if you will sculptured by the product of the enviroment in which the children are surrounded. Sculpture is said to be a fine art of CUTTING so...to CHANGE a form of a preexising condition. Carving is a rductive process in which the desired form is reached by removing surplus from a block or similiar mass of material. Modeling an additive process in which the form is built up in a PLASTIC material. Constructing or assembly line cookie cutter,joining ready made shapes(twi how many TIMES did you take the class!!!) Almost any material shaped three diminsional may be used for sculpture,,but ICE is the solid form of water produced by FREEZING IT IS MUCH EASIER TO CUT ON A FROZEN ITEM(the cuts are more accurate and sharp) Ever heard of the expression i felt as ICE was flowing through my blood.a FROZEN numbness inside................so the more ice produced by freezing the more sculpture to invent..... TIME being the ONLY uncontrolable element in the mind of (child) the child goes within to image building,creativity like a toddler carefully building blocks,by reflex,by safety precation to BLOCK FEAR. Although a false oasis for hope,a safety net of some kind,shelter from a storm(in our case we were looking for answers in biblical research/God..peace) Ice sculpture syndrome is born.

that made me AND my cat throw up a little.

yeah,i saw him with elvis at the 7 eleven eating hot dogs!

i STILL like those old vw buses from the 60's.like the one in the movie "cars" but steve (if that is steve in that little picture)look like more of a nascar guy to me,maybe a chevy guy(thats a compliment where i come from!)

You know you NEVER see a BLACK SHEEP SITTING WITH JESUS and i think that it is what JESUS DID THE MOST...THAT S HOW I FEEL ANYWAY AND he loves YOU!!!!! I myself am a black sheep of my family and i like it that way.

sorry,i guess that wasn't fair ,i was...........looking for answers and everything that green card said,and then i sold my 12 string guitar!

THAT IS FANTASTIC! Their are more out there and i think grease spot can get a hold of them too!