cheranne

Ever been to those christian book stores. They let ANYONE buy a label that says "preacher" Sorta like those dime store woody sherrif badge,so when your a child you can PLAY "let pretend"..... Some people never get out of that stage,their are pretend PREACHERS in each little town across america,so many now that if you hold a state job and are married by the PREACHER it doesn't hold the water in a dixie cup,and the courthouse document is all they want these days. and yet ....the archetype of those who call or consider themselves preachers or really the archetype of emotional vampires! Ever meet people like that. Curious George has a line for he man in the yellow hat. Taxi driver picks him up and says :where to YELLOW? man with yellow hat says: I'll throw in an extra 20 if you stop calling me YELLOW. TAXI driver says: OKAY SUNSHINE!!!! EARTH SCHOOL IS A B E A C H.

once in western maryland i saw lightening blow a metal cross right off a steeple next door to where i was.

a song by BLONDIE called RAPTURE

I TRIED TO SEND A EMAIL AND PICTURE DID IT GO THROUGH?

okay..but i think don wierwille looks like mr. bean!

PFAL WAS THE EBOLA VIRUS AND WE WERE THE HOST!!!!! THE WAY INTERNATIONAL IS A TOXIN ,THAT DESTROYS PEOPLES LIVES AND FAMILIES AN MUST BE CONTAINED AND DESTROYED

page 4 10 years go by............ therapy begins . You fill in the rest(IF IT HELPS YOU) OR IF YOU THINK IT CAN HELP OTHER PEOPLE COMING OUT OF THE WAY INTERNATIONAL. OR IF YOU THINK IT MIGHT HELP OUR SOCIETY TO UNDERSTAND.........AND FIND HEALING .

page 3 alone..........i walk into the hollow building slowly quiely with reverance as if visiting a sick friend in an intensive care ward. my focus is on the God i believe in the one i believe to be real that i have failed serving,..........his name Jesus. A man of sorrow on a wooden cross, a God who experienced such horror and sadness because he so loved the WORLD. As i walk closer i am powered by the heartbeat with the blood running through my veins bought and paid for by this JESUS. I feel i don't belong here...i feel sad because i can't serve God with a true calling.........and i have nothing left to give NOTHING what stands between us is an alter of holiness i can't enter and i feel like an orphaned child..alone..just visiting. I stand with the sword in my hand given to every follower as the seed of sowers,i had to bring it back and lay it down. It tormants my soul...i wanted this more than anything at one time...and now i lay my sword down and i will walk away. I can no longer fight....i am weary.i can stand no more.....I walk away in silence only hearing the echos of my shoes and HONESTY.

i also use to listen to jackson browne alot in 78(i think)eagles, (take the long way home)but then alot of instumental music as you don't have to do the taking apart of words thing that can make you nuts sometimes(i sometimes question every lyric.!) I love ani difranco now. HOW DO WE MAKE THAT HAPPEN? anyone have any connections,or graphics for a ribbon(maybe with a dead tree on it)

food fight! here is some COW PIE TO GO WITH VPW PFAL CLASS (ON THE HOUSE)

THERE IS A RIVER CALLED DENIAL........ANYONE KNOW THAT SONG,SOONER OR LATER THE TRUTH COMES OUT. JESUS IS NOT GOD????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Please try to get this book into BORDERS BOOKS AND MUSIC where other people can be aware of THE WAY INTERNATIONAL.

THEIR IS A RIVER CALLED DENIAL. I am not a leaf on this dead foot tree

page 2 I worked two blocks fom the white house in d.c. at an optical store,dressed as nicely as i could in my budget of thrift store clothes,pressed and ironed shoes polished,the whole discipline of being a good steward of things. At the end of the day i would get on the metro and return to my twig,one wow sister,3 wow brothers and a cheap roach infested overpriced apt in northeast d.c. Sometimes we would eat,sometimes not. we all went back to our cocoons and our new way of life! On a good day we would go see the museums which were all free and witness to homeless people who had no food either. Lucky for fast food turnover hiring that was how most wows ate,or..survived.between us all five we had l broken down car driven from arizona on the last leg of life. On a better day we would go to limb an have a feast with other way believers also living the "abundent life" in cocoon shells. My first year on the field right after roa my wow sister had a car a volvo,pretty nice for a wow..until it broke down on the way to idaho and we were told to LEAVE IT on the hiway it was an attack of the adversay trying to wipe us out before we even got to out destination...(ha)that is how important our mission was that God was sending us too(through hqs cow plop decisions of where in the world to send wows!

Sometimes times it hurts to be honest.........we hide behind work,newspapers or activities we must attend. Since i have become awakened to some extent i have had the feeling of wanting to submerge because knowingly and unknowingly because i know dealing with this face to face will be like climbing a steep wall with no footholds and barehands. Each foothold must MUST be secure! I can not afford another fall, another lie,no hiding..the mask must come off...pealed off slowly so that the TRUTH CAN BE EXPOSED. THIS is therapy..this is how you heal. I must be aware of hidden feelings in the heart that decieve me that TWI was a good thing. I had accepted a therory from vpw and trusted his teachings were of a true God(or we should just throw the whole book out in the trash!) What i found was an acceptance of human love in very green wow ambassadors that also longed for human love and a family that never abandoned you were there 24/7(at least in the beginning when you were undersheparded) We were all clinging on to this life raft in shark infested waters of manipulation and greed from a company with dollar signs in their eyes called THE WAY. Fast forword two years into my second year on the field,I had become a fearless human with a terminator type attitude looking for souls. Shunning very thing else out of my site. My past was a thousand miles behind me...gone....DEAD It was buried with the "old man" in a thousand doors shut and bolted locked. With no key in sight to open the first door....what was best for the "ministry"was all that mattered...i was committed..sold out..a bond slave for CHRIST?????????????????????? and i did not feel good about this like i once did and began to look for my exit not only to escape physically but mentally and emotionally.

I really would like to see more cult awareness brought to our society,i wonder if HBO would tap into this. I watched some of the in treatment show on today and it was like kindergarten therapy talking about a cappachino machine (please!!) If you had this show based on cult survivors(twi)how would you present it to society?

psychological hoax! MONEY MONEY MONEY...IT just errrkks me that as we speak people are still being LIED to and decieved by this.

I want to go there with polar bear and have margarittas! AMEN

i think what hurt the most in the end was my bible,after a few years after i left twi i got it out and blew off the dust,tried to get into a simple local church and the spiritual warfare would just go thru the roof,constant battle! My therapist held on to it for me because it was driving me crazy,like a road map with WTF directions . One day and we had been thru hell and back (my therapist and i)I wanted my bible back and she said are you sure about that?..................................long silence. yes So i just held it quietly,then slowly flipped thru pages,all the markings standing in hilights like scars,and i said "this is the word of God"and ripped it to shreads.papers flying EVERYWHERE,I couldn't stop,couldn't hear, think and broke something glass ,then cut my wrist,so she is on the phone to get the ambulance pronto,while in my head i am thinking of jumping out a window,(whew,what a day) So the story gets longer but that is what happened because i had a hard time expressing anger,i let it build up til it exploded ,i am just glad it wasn't a gun to my head. I have a new bible now.

watch the News today

what about an1800#. My safe house was joining the ARMY. a BIG price and sacrifice to transition,til i slipped up and became a miltary wow,but when i left twi for the last time i had a decent job and a roof over my head.

the 5 fab go under a witness protection plan .....to be continued

does paul vergillio have a music web site? anyone know?

it effected our entire family,,my children were not raised in twi,but i wanted them to know and believe in GOD and we did the church thing when they were little and prayer was always important ,but i would never make them feel outcast if they later wanted to be in a religon or not in anything. i think if i had never been in twi,i would have just been a laid back catholic and woudn't have had so many freakin questions . The hand that rocks the cradle is extremely an influence on the child. We want the best for our children even when we are not sure what s best for us. We lost our first child and for the longest time i thought it was because we walked away from twi,lots of spiritual warfare coming out of this cult,no exit counciling back then either just kinda fix yourself up the best you could and move on but,this is something you just can't sweep under the carpet of your mind,not if you want true healing from false teaching, the fact of the matter is God always knew my heart.

i went to their music site,i always like them BUT that song 'I am a leaf gave me the creeps listening to it after resurfacing,the whole way tree thing !!!ugh