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It also was a big deal to me Waysider. I held on to that Wow Pin for 15 years and then I had a celebration and threw it in a Deep Lake! I realize now I was NOT leaving God I was leaving The Way a buisness that used the Bible for there gain, and the people as it's pawns.

Yes. I'm sure we all had those thoughts now and again.

I remember kinda feeling like the words to this song! The confusion was I was believing God but NOT TWI anymore who I thought were the elite you know the living room of Gods love. I had a lot to learn and UNlearn!!! <object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIHwZO8Hnxk&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIHwZO8Hnxk&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BIHwZO8Hnxk&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>

I thought maybe my sister would let us stay at her place. I hadn't seen her in years! I swallowed my pride and called,she was more than willing to help me AND my traveling friend out! My dear father who had bailed me out last time with a plane ticket from D.C. got both My traveling friend and me plane tickets to Philly. The weird thing is we could not stand to be separated,we both never knew eachother until we got into a Way Home in Mesa Az and we both were going thru the exact same leaving twi and the shunning of the broken vow/greasespot crap. We leaving together made eachother strong when the other was weak. We were just a mess trying to get the twi talk outta our heads! We got to Philly and what do we do hitch hike to Dover! Get there and at her apartment door I mean the neighbor! I could NOT believe this had a Way bumper sticker on the freakn door!!! We just wanted to throw up!

We got to Orlando completely broke and we decided to get back on the road and head to New York! Got a ride to North Carolina then to Richmond then to New Jersy,thought about getting out in Dover De (where I had a sister) but we didn't. We were headed to Long Island where my friend was from. It got scary in New Jersey and and the trucker had a gun. We tricked him into thinking he was going to get what he wanted but we made a plan really quick and escaped into the darkness of the night. Our last ride into NYC. Now what to do. We stayed a couple of days at her sisters then got kicked out(she was a Way believer too) So after traveling cross country..we had no where to go. Again.

I wonder how many people left a few times and came back to twi cause it was difficult to live on the outside. The 2nd time was the most dangerous leaving experience I had. But that VOW thing just ate at me and I couldn't shake it and I went back in as a Military Wow Grand daughter I am glad you found this place. It is most difficult trying to sort it out alone without support. I can only write now about these things 25 yrs ago,healing took along time and I believe to share that with others can help. It is one thing to physically leave and another to mentally have it out of your system!

Well...at that point when your out on the road (everything comes back at you)you wonder if this was the right move? At the time I can say YES,and I believe God protected us when things got really bad and they did a few times. Was it the wise thing to do. No(Leaving TWI Yes that was wise but, not in the way we thought we had to.) Disappearing into thin air. We got a ride from Tempe to Dallas to Memphis we stayed in a cheap motel a few times and just crashed, took showers at truck stops and ate food in bars having happy hour snacks as some men would buy us drinks we didn't spend money. We still had the residue of WAY BRAIN ,I can do all things,terminator type attitude that nothing could harm us,(I call it stupidity NOW!) We got to Orlando somehow and I loose track of time there on how long we were on the road. No money now, No Plans.

Thank you Twinky and you are absolutely right! So many of us were so committed to Serving God thru TWI. Why else would we just throw it all away unless our Hearts were not in it? But meanwhile.... behind lay the corrupt leadership and twisted scripture of the buisness of TWI.

We waited until everyone in our Way Home left for the day and threw our bags over the balconey ,taking as little as possible and my guitar and hitch hiked from Mesa Arizona headed towards Florida. Sidetracked to San Diego California with some strange rides and a sense of both fear and freedom in our gut. Almost got into some deep .... near LA with gang members until by some mirical a truck appeared (out of nowhere it seemed)and inside was an Indian man wearing turquiste,never speaking a word just signaling come on get in. He dropped us in a little town it was early early 4 am or so when we got a ride in a pick up truck in the back carrying vegetables from the valley. We took turns sleeping ,one of us always staying awake and holding the mace I still had from being a security guard in Tempe Az tightly in my coat pocket. Thinking of our next move. It was around March 1980 and basically we were homeless.

I hope this doesn't seem lame sending you a song from you tube but it was a song I use too listen to full blast with headphone on while in the hospital at Sheppard Pratt trying to figure out stuff after getting shots of thorazin! (fOR THROWING MY SHOES IN THE QUIET ROOM AND SCREAMING "I DON'T BELIEVE IN ANYTHING!!!) <object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value=" name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src=" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>You are not alone in how you feel! I'm glad you have the balls to speak openly about this because so so many people can't.

Okay I am just gonna say it,cause I have been exactley where you are at now. If this is a medical emergency please call 911. I think lots of people have felt like this too!

Well I took a plane home that time but later in Arizona I had a shunned wow vet and myself at many truckstops! We sat long and hard thinking about stuff! We even joined the Army together because we needed a job with benefits!

It was a new start for me back into "the ministry" :blink: I had left the Wow Field I had been a Wow the year before and was just simply BURNED OUT,same thing same thing same thing and I was 21 and wanted to LIVE. I thought this was a bad thing but it was actually a good thing my mind working things out trying to figure out my future. My intention was not to leave the "ministry" but to leave the Wow Field and start my career in Law Enforcement. Time was ticking like a bomb in my head,I had a Twig in North East D.C. a wow sister and 3 wow brothers,staying in a roach infested house sleeping on the floor. The oven was broken and so was the 1 car we had,( you know how people said the have a car but when you got to ROA it was not there for whatever reason. Anyway I was use to hitchhiking anyway but now we had DC's Metro. I wanted the best for my twig on our days off we would go to the Smithsonian (which was free) have a outside lunch on the Washington Monument grounds people watching and even having a fellowship,and we were' all young and healthy and strong good looking (on the outside) Inside the wheels were turning for me anyway ,our Limb leader M. R :wacko: :wacko: d! lived high on the hog in a nice house. While my family looked forward to eating hamburgers at Gino's maybe on payday! Ofcourse after the ABS thing was done,and all the attention to detail about our "appearance" was in order. I knew this was not what I wanted for my twig. I worked across the street from the White House at an Optical store and would have my lunch at Lafayette Park facing the White House. I asked myself one to many times during lunch with tourist and homeless people . Just WHAT am I doing here!!!! I loved my wow brothers and my 1 wow sister and wanted them to have a better wow year. I had allready had a Wow Year. And honestly I was tired of the whole dog and pony show of PFAL, but little did I know my eyes were being enlightened...every time I had these thoughts. So I left. Went back to Oklahoma to be a "normal twi follower"(NO SUCH THING by the way :blink: ) Have you every experienced that and then being shunned even though you still wanted to be a part of twi? Thing is the break helped me to get a grip on reality(for a little while)until I went back in later my head hanging low and non functioning on the outside.

I was in Idaho in 79. The Grand Tetons were majestic the wow field was boring Not my wow family but all the Mormons! I believe Dana was in Idaho Falls then. Actually we probably were boring too come to think of it now!

what Leafytwiglet said I agree

what Bramble said.

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No not even close. I knew Navigators and went to bible studies in North Carolina. Navigators are NOT shady people selling snake oil like Dr. Fat Rat.

Again! Beating the dead horse!

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Why can't they just "Let it Go" TWI is like beating a dead horse!

Just something I wrote a while back sorry if I posted this twice I wanted it to be here. The street is on fire....Ice, Salt and Snow Their is no passage back to the Yellow Brick Road Our minds are on cruise control...burning tread on the road' We wash it off quickly So it does not show...the Stain in the paint like the life that we know Salt cuts through ice The Sculptures take time The salt in there wounds are Numb at this time You would think salt water "stings in a wound so deep The fishes don't die the just lull in a freeze Adaption in cult climate change is for sure its a process of alteration in many degrees But one that does not allow you to fall to your knees To worship the Jesus that died for your sins In order to have freedom of bondage from them. The Way International..NOT the salt of the earth Not Ambassadors for Christ or the Lords church Some people on a farm running a buisness selling snake oil and classes that said we are The Way more abundent life for You.. When we found out too late we were all screwed! Frozen in time ...unable to move Until a real Christian said this Blood is for You Take it and drink and remember this Jesus Christ died on the Cross for your sins.

It was a little differant in the 70's. People were not as weird as they are now!