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Shocking? It would be shocking if he found a cult where the leaders and followers respected their fellow members.

Oh - I love Old English Sheepdogs! :3 They are so hyper and smart. We have a big girl named Momoko. I love Dachshunds as well even though they are barky and like to dig waaaay too much. They are worth it though. I don't think there is a dog breed I don't like... just particular dogs with awful owners that either kill them with kindness (spoiled rotten) or make them mean.

Sorry for not posting in so long. I think I was so depressed I just sort of forgot about everything. My father died on the 18th. My family and I are still trying to get back to normal if there is such a thing anymore. I'm not sure what else to say.

I know they thought my husband was hehe (he is bipolar). They probably thought I was too. We were just trying to move my brother back home because he was injured on the job and surprise surprise the wayfers he was living with didn't give a crap and weren't taking care of him like the brother he was supposed to be. They thought we were trying to keep him from being in a place he needed to be. It was really funny (but only now) watching people step around you like you are some crocodile (like you are going to hurt them in some way) with their hands outstretched like they were going to cast out the spirits. I swear I was trying to be polite and not laugh but the way they were acting was insane. There wasn't much laughing at the end of it though - there is only so much of that you can take before it starts to get annoying. It's kind of weird talking and interacting with someone who is still in that mind frame when you've been there yourself.

I bought all of it because I was a kid and I didn't know any better. Sometimes I don't know how my parents got so into it since they were adults when they joined. Then again they were in an area with nicer people with families that actually loved their kids. We moved to another area and it went from bad to worse. When things started getting really awful my dad uprooted us (thank freaking goodness). Sorry I think I went

Pardon if anyone else has already said this. Since I was born into TWI - I think it started for me since the beginning... but I would say it started in fellowship or the twig itself. They had to mold you a bit before you bought all the garbage in the foundational class.

Thanks guys. =( I haven't heard back with anything new. This morning when my brother went in - his blood pressue was so low I'm surprised he didn't die right then. It was up to somewhere like 45/80 or something crazy after they gave him something. This is just so hard... especially when he was starting to do better.

I wish I could honestly. The only people who have the authority to let me go aren't here right now - so I can't ask... and I can't disapear and leave the office unmanned either. And since I've already turned in my time card for today it probably won't go over well. And no - my job isn't worth it. The last few times he's almost died I had to work right through it and I can't quit until honey's job starts generating some sort of income. I can't wait to move and get a new job...

I guess I spoke too soon. They found out he has blood clots in his heart as well as both of his lungs. Probably because they didn't believe he was worth saving... so they never moved his legs around. So we did it when we could. His breathing was bad last night - but it got a little better with treatments. My brother just gave me a call a minute ago and told me he thinks this is the end. I'm stuck at work right now so I can't go see him. I don't know what to do.

Nope - only myself. My husband was relieved.

Nice meeting you! *sca-weeeeze* :3 I'll have to check out your book too - can I go to Barnes & Noble and pre-order it?

That's what I did. My thoughts are - he's been here for what? 2,000+ posts. He's like... 50+ years old. Set in his ways and thinking. You guys have been trying to convince him for over 5 years what you guys have said is true? He doesn't believe you. Why bother trying to convince someone like that? Maybe WD is a decent fellow when it comes to stuff that has nothing to do with the way. And I don't mind hearing someone's nice days in TWI - or hell - if they like VP and sing his praises I'm not going to complain - but I get sick of reading: "I object! Liar! Liar! But I didn't call everyone a liar! Putting words in my mouth?" Every other post. So... blocked. When I meet people here I don't look at their post count or when they joined - at all. But when I read something like: "You've been saying this horrible thing since Waydale." It's like: and you are still trying to convince him otherwise? Like Bumpy said - it's just freaking boring. It's like talking to brick wall. Why bother? Just keep telling everyone what happened to you - good or bad and ignore the guy who can't be convinced that your own experiences are true or not.

Going out on a limb... But usually people who whine about someone attacking them after they said something stupid... Just wants to be able to continue to say whatever the heck they want... without having someone call them on it. All the while they get to continue to say whatever they want - and personally attack other people... But it's somehow different. Yep.

Because my dad used to play Santa quite a few times. ;3 But my dad did kiss my mother the other day. 3 times or so. He even winked at her. My dad is still doing his on-and-off thing where he seems quite awake enough to say something or wiggle his eyebrows at you... to very sleepy and he can't be roused. I had dream again last night - that he was at the house... I walked in after work... I dreamed of work btw... boooorring. But he was sitting there... and everyone was sitting around him like they were happy he was there... but simply forgot to call me up and tell me. Everything was so real - down to the conversation. I was mad that no one called me up... but I couldn't give a rip after about ten seconds. I even asked my dad if I was dreaming. He didn't talk - but he just shook his head no. So I went over and just bawled on him and told him I loved him. And then I woke up again... and cried all over again. My dad is doing better. He is - he answered in a complete sentence! But I am so worried I will never see my father at home... because the doctors simply do not believe my mother OR the nurses when they tell them he spoke, followed a pen, mimics people or kissed someone. They come in for a few minutes a day and poof... gone. But they don't believe anyone who actually spends more than ten seconds in the room with him. I say this because he was quite active - and then... he just sort of zoned out. He had a problem with his heart... a tiny clot in an unimportant valve - but it needed to be fixed before there is a problem. One of the doctors wouldn't treat him because he said: "Oh well... you know. Sometimes patients can stay in this state forever - but sometimes they just get sick and die." My dad talked! Instead of the doctor just going: Really? He's always like: Are you sure that happened? Are you suuuurreeee!?!?!?!? *I sooo want to drop kick this creep* A completely treatable problem... and "sometimes they get sick and die." WTF?! The other day his blood pressure was very high... but the doctor didn't do squat for him. The only reason anything gets done is because my mother demands to see a different doctor who is willing to help... if she didn't ask another one wouldn't be called to help. O_o No wonder she has been living at the hospital. If she didn't I'm sure he would have been dead by now. But hopefully he will be getting transfered out tomorrow - hopefully to a place that doesn't suck. Keep your fingers crossed.

There is no spoon...

Must be nice. =/ I get to deal with it still because some of my friends and family are still in their clutches. I get to live it through them. Although I am quite blessed to finally be out and casting off the anger and guilt in my own life. :3

I dunno - I think Nate is a decent sort of person. He definitely seemed to have compassion for others which sets him apart. People might not agree with everything he says but I doubt anyone will hate him and call him names.

Edited. Nevermind... it's not like it will do any good anyway.

That's what I was wondering... although I won't be able to wait - biting the nails - to see his wonderful uplifting reply. Oh well.

Riiigghhttt... That's how it is. You got it all figured out. Ah well. Thanks for letting me get to know you. Too bad for me.

snails? is that like eating frog? like eatting a little chicken - who happens to be living in a shell?

It was about as funny as when someone posted a joke about killing a cat on the cat forum I was a part of.

Bitterness? You mean the lively discussion? ;) Paris? Can I come?

Quick everyone! Let's jump on the time machine! We've gots-ta get video evidence to make some people happy! Oh! And DNA! Because we totally can't prove nuthin' without it. Thems are facts! Because until then the victims are like robbers! ... I've come to the conclusion that no one here needs to prove themselves to you. It's not like talking to you is going to help you reach some sort of enlightenment. Half the time I wonder if you guys are just trolls rubbing your paws together and enjoying the way people jump like you know they will. Drama cows to be milked. I'm embarassed that I even replied... like I am replying now. Damn! XP So anyways... spouse abuse is bad... m'kay? treating your wife or husband like garbage is bad too. Where is that ignore button? Just in case...

Thank you God - if there is a God. Greater life force? Whoo! That I married the man I did! Because him - even in all of his umedicated bi-polar glory - he was never as bad as some of the guys on here. Damn. He's medicated now. And after reading some of the posts here - I've come to the conclusion that he's a freaking saint. God I love him and I am sooooo freaking blessed to have him. That you... thank you greater life force... For giving me the brain not to marry some of "these" instead.