Hopefull

The quote I heard was, "Love God, love yourself, love others; serve God, serve others, serve yourself". Still like it. Just sayin.

Thanks for your responses- I renewed my mind!! (not really, but now I have perspective). That South Park episode was soooo good!!

The other day I called in to a radio station and received a free reading from a psychic medium. She mentioned a maternal presence and asked me if I had a stepmother that died recently-no, but my stepmothers mom died and she and I were close and described her personality. I asked her questions about my husband and she relayed a few details of my husbands death including that I gave the instructions to take him off life support and apparently my husband wanted to say thank-you, she knew Connecticut was attached to me somehow- I was born there- and then I told her about my plans to move to Louisville, KY. She said, you can move there if you like, but you won't like it there. You will wind up back in NY or Conn. Now I don't think you can just believe the part you want and discard the rest. If she is accurate, I may be making a wrong move. However, if twi was right, this info is coming from devil spirits. If I was a devil spirit, I would relay just what she did- be accurate about the past and try to screw up someones present and future. What do you think of psychic mediums like John Edward? Where do you think the information is coming from?

Thanks for your responses!! Cman, I have looked a little on Craiglist- there isn't much out there right now. However my sister-in-law works for the hospital system and has has about 80 people under her- I have done billing for a law office the last 4 years and I asked her if she could try and get me in entry level medical billing and she said yes. Also I really feel that if God is encouraging this change like I think He is, then the job will follow. Shell, I know I can always count on you for some words of wisdom. We both belong to the club that no one ever wants to be a part of! You get me, you really get me! (spoken like Sally Fields) yes the unknown is very scary but also exciting too. This one is a big void full of homesickness and possibilities. Bulwinkl, I would appreciate any more inside information you have about the' Ville! Do you like it there? It is very pretty but the people talk funny. hahah I guess I am looking for an office job- I have worked as the head of the payoff deartment in a law office- foreclosures- and I was the liaison between the banks and the people losing their homes. Payment plans, short payoffs, etc.- you would think our office would have been busy, wouldn't you... Pond, that is some story- I hope I will be as happy in the job I eventually find sometime in the New Year. Life is full of surprises. I hope your family situation works itself out so you can see your grandkids. Leafytwiglet, I love your siamese gif- I have 2 cats of my own. Change can absolutely be the best thing but until you find a new comfort zone it is scary!! I think I have problems making decisions because I want to make the right one!! You know, those 4 d's of doulos doings- decision, desire, details, deliverence- is one of the things I think twi was right on about. (even though I have been heard to make fun of it) Zshot, my parents are in AZ but I am not moving there. The weather is great in Tucson but the family that wants me is in KY. Krys, you are so right about looking forward to it as an adventure. I think it will be when the time comes, it is the anticipation that is making me anxious. I have been to Louisville 3x this year and the housing is at least one half of what it is here. You know long Island- amenities- what's that? I took an application for a complex I liked- and I am hoping to be able to move most of my stuff. My dad thought I should start over with all new things but I was married and had a life, and want to keep as much as possible. Furniture, dishes, TV, puter, framed prints and paintings, books, etc. will go. Small appiances can be tossed as well as most of my clothes. I could donate my cats to the Chinese restaurant next door and get new ones in KY but I guess I'd miss 'em too much...: And thank-you Thomas, kimberly, georgestgeogre, and daddyhoundog- I appreciate all you had to say. Thanks everyone for your input, it really helped me to write it all out and to read your thoughts on the matter.

Is it negative confession for me to say that change scares the bejezus out of me? In the last 3 years and 3 months, I lost my husband to cancer, 2 grandparents died, then the guy I dated for 14 months dumped me in August, and in September I lost my job of 20 years. I live on Long Island- was sent here as a wow in '82- and it is too expensve to live here on my own any longer. I have no family here (although I do have 2 girlfriends and I am like a member of their families)- and I do not own a home. I don't want to be 70 years old and still forking out most of my income on rent. A condo would be nice but not do-able here. So...my step brother and his wife and daughter live in is in Louisville KY and they would like it if I moved there. So would my dad and step-mom in AZ, my mom in Indianapolis (2 hours away)- and my sister and nieces in Cleveland (5 hours away). I have vague plans to move there in the spring when my NY unemployment is used up- if I don't get hired by someone in the meantime. And you know what it is like "out there" right now! I am very scared of being totally out of my comfort zone at my age- living in a new place, moving on my own, finding a new job- God, how do you look for work in the 21st century-...I love it here but it seems like Long Island is telling me not to let the door hit my butt on the way out. Or like when God closes a door He opens a window. I feel like all my possibilites hre have been used up, like a battery that has lost all its juice. My friends don't want me to go but they understand. Not much left for me here anymore. I sure miss my old life.

Matilda! I am so glad to see you here. Happy Birthday, sweetie, and many more. That fake wedding you orchestrated online about 10 years ago was the most fun I ever had online. Love, Hopefull

Thank-you for remembering my Birthday!!

In answer to the thread question- YES! I graduated from college in 1982 and went that year. I prayed for a “major city with a beach” as my happiest childhood memories are of family vacations in Martha’s Vineyard and I had been land-locked in Indiana and Ohio for 15 years. I got sent to Long Island. After the year ended I stayed (having no other place to go as my father moved to Arizona, my sister to Cleveland and my mother was in Indiana) and 26 years later I am still here. I only have a few things that keep me here- mainly comfort and familiarity. My husband has been gone for 2 ½ year, my current job of 2 years is pretty uninspiring (but in today’s economy a job is a job right?); I have 2 very good girlfriends that I see too infrequently and I am dating a nice man who I will never live with or marry because of our many differences. I sometimes wonder if I should start over somewhere else- somewhere with a lower coast of living. I also have wondered what my life would be like- if I hadn't gone wow.

...but I've wanted to be president since I was this many years old!

1. What web site is this? GSC 2. What Area of the Web site is this test in? About the Way 3. Do you still believe The Way Ministry was not a cult? I believe that is was less of a cult if to those not way corps but yes it was/is a cult 4.Do you still love to see Victor Paul Wierwille at the Rock? assuming I ever did and no 5. Do you still plan to go to the Rock of Ages? only if I had alzeimers 6. Are you planing to go WOW this year? this was written before 1995 obviously, my wow year was pretty cool actually, I am too old for that crap now 7. Do you still give money to the Way ministry? always tried not to 8. Are running a class in your home right now? ha, my little apt would barely hold a small twig 9. Do you feel sorry that the Way ministry lost a lot of people? no, I am amazed at all the people that stayed around after VPW died and POP 10. Do you still believe the Way doctrines were of God? I believe that the basics of christianity are of God and if twi taught them then they did something right 11. Is it possible Victor Paul Wierwille lie to you? It is impossible that he did not 12. Do you still pray for Victor Paul Wierwille? never did and now he is dead, the only dead man I pray for is my husband 13. Do you still send money to move the Word of the Way forward? they owe ME money 14. Do you still go to Limb cookouts? ha, this too is an old question 15. Do you still with pride have a Way sticker on your car? I NEVER PUT ONE ON MY CAR and got reproved big time 16. Do you still sing at your home fellowship? I sing alone in bed sometimes 17. Do you still hide from people who have been mark and avoided by the Way ministry? That would mean I hide from myself which I cannot do because wherever I go there I am 18. Do you still witness about the class? yes would be a silly answer 19. Were you smart to get out of the Way ministry? a BIG YES but it sure hurt at the time 20. Did you stay to long in the Way ministry? Yes, and then I went back but I met my husband and things worked out the way they were supposed to

I am going to the Tuesday game in the Bronx- I hope it's a good one. Rooting for the Yankees but then if I don't, the friends I am going with might just hurt me!!

Thank-you for the birthday posts!! I still do some reading here but I don't show myself much anymore- it is so nice to be remembered!! Love you guys!!

Thanks for your reply. Occasionally I dream that I am with them after so many years and I tell them, you know I always dream about you guys and then I wake up. Dave and Karen were/are 2 of the warmest, most down to earth people- I would love for them to know that they are still in my thoughts even after all these years.

Now if he was given the key to the city, why didn't he show it in the class? Why did we just take his word for it? Because all believing equal receiving; when we believe VP, we receive fiction as fact.