Thanks Abi, you opinion is worth as much as anyone elses opinion and I personally value it very much.
In answer to your questions, will the outcome change the way that I make decisions in my life, no, it will not. I am not asking this to justify nor validate any of my past or future actions. But only to understand the truth and possibly to understand human love a bit better.
You are right it is important that we are honest and loving towards God. And I can respect and see the possible lack of relevance to the question and regardless of the outcome to the question it will not affect my love for God or how I make my decisions.
Knowing how God's love works towards man helps me to understand our love for God and for each other in day to day life.
And your final question, is my love for myself conditional or unconditional? Well, I'm still working on that one. There is much that I need to work on in my own life. This is one reason why I have come here to seek some help in sorting out the confusions.
Thank you for your responses they do help me to define the parameters and to see that my love for God and how I conduct my life is really an important point.