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The crowd(?) at SNS.. patiently waiting.. chanting.. "Hogdafat, hogafat, hogdafat , hogdafat.." (make sure you are standing.. have to give the gal the right kind of respect..) she appears... the crowd breaks into pandemonium.. well.. might happen with enough lsd in the water..

HOGDAFAT, or HOGFODAT. Apt Acronyms for Hag of gawd for our day and time. That is all. Carry on..

thats what I was wondering.. where was the *official* announcement made? oh yeah.. then would come the little "opportunity" with about three hundred questions asking "how so?" then there is restitution to those they harmed.. my name is in the phone book.. nobody's called me explaining how its all better, along with pleas for me to come back and be *blessed* to *abundantly share* again..

Yeah.. I've put some of my story here as well. The one "numbnuts" and family.. get nothing unless he (they) read it here.. really.. the last brief encounter.. he says "oh.. I'm developing *professionally*.. blah blah blah.. gonna end up making a mint selling snake oil (my opinion) at such and such place.." I think he enjoyed just hearing himself talk.. the parting comments.. say hello to so and so .. (the ex) and family.. I didn't ask about his kids.. I already knew far more than he would ever consider going "public" with. he KNOWS I'm divorced.. what's with that? Maybe he's just suffering memory loss.. or maybe it was just another gentle "stab" and reminder that I'm outside of da crumbling walls of "zion" Am I Reading too much into this? I really don't think so..

when I see these guys.. I don't tell them anything. No fuel.. "well, everything is going GREAT! I'm doing so and so..(despite not going to *twig*).." it's not just "small talk" anymore with these numbnuts.. suppose one has a few roadblocks.. "see.. he (she) can't cut the mustard, because they left da dumb house hole.." I think they are experts in da gift(?) of analyzing "faults"..

Shell, after reading the little "joy" of an email.. the tone of it sounds like.. "To the last, I grapple with thee; From Hell's heart, I stab at thee; For hate's sake, I spit my last breath at thee and Gawd bless you abundantly in da name of jesus our lord, amen." kinda conflicted, is it not? but really.. any sore spot, any possible festering wound they might open.. seems they dig deep.. The last time I ran across a still in wayfer.. he (with subtlety) tried the same thing.. just little hints.. suggestions in almost every sentence that came out of his mouth.. such bile.. he's a frgging lunatic.. what else could one expect.. I think they are still trying to carry out the loyster's mandate.. to (supposedly) bring ruination to people's lives who had the audacity to leave willingly, or even unwillingly.. worse than fiendish Chihuahuas, nipping at one's heels.. if they were much larger, there might be a problem..

well.. it happened once.. see.. there was once this *woman*.. who gave da *man* everything he wanted.. aw, forget it.. those in da way, you don't want to read the bible anymore anyway, do you.. Pick a spot of your own discretion. I'm sure it can be arranged..

Cmon.. all would take is one of you miserable sonsabitches.. and you doubt yourself to the end.. I'm almost to the point of challenging the "cuss checker" here.. lets not let it come to that.. sowie.. maybe I'm asking for a miracle.. aren't we all..

and yes, dear cousin, I considered everything you had to say.. :)

I dunno.. but this particular borg seems to have a non-leader..

what they can't figure.. she is an EMPLOYEE. call whatever she does whatever.. all she has is BLUSTER. That's it.. so she holds secrets.. don't all of them anyway? All it takes is one "brave" demasculated eunich to throw her down the wall.. so... pathetic..

I really don't see.. why you as an organization don't kick her to the street.. somewhere in Cincinnati.. or Cleveland.. you really could do it.. get an accountant.. figure the gains vs loss.. so pathetic.. unless she's consumed too much Jimson weed or something.. I think her blood would be no less appetizing..

what about rosie? Or the Donster? I mean.. by DEFINITION..as an employee of da way.. aren't they there to just be "blessed" or something.. and have no significant renumeration? I mean.. that's what the hag said, wasn't it? yep. There for.. endless *training* for what in god's name I just can't see.. Sowie. I just happen to be extra evil tonight.. So.. who is there that's "training" da hag of gawd for our day time and hour? sorry.. it just happens to cut both ways..

actually its worse than that. They will be forced to endure endless debriefings with the committees they cut deals with for this existence.. well, its my version of the religion, anyway.. His wife is mindless.. well, what else would one expect..

I dunno. I thought that was how f*rt got in the wind.. just have to supply the missing vowels properly..

I know.. I'm asking on a more personal level..

so... what exactly are you trying to get out of all of this? In other words.. what do you want? just wonder..

I'm glad somebody is getting some entertainment.. but really.. who says looking at the eternal has to be all that serious..

Hmmmm... *stole*? Heh.. maybe the new euphemism will be "recycled"..

Perhaps.. but I still believe.. man has the "trump card" to render all that nonsense.. as nonsense. does one want to pull the card in an evangelical, *we have da answer* environment? Probably not.. on a fundamental level.. (not to be confused with fundamentalism or some such nonsense ) Its like.. one has to let go of something.. which annoying belief is it going to be.. at one point, one has to choose.. or does one. where did that little fundamental belief come from.. have to choose one side or another.. pretty limited options..

so.. they pick up little scraps, or even whole scripts, of days gone by.. now does man indeed have a genuine NEED to believe the unbelievable (or unexplainable).. I don't think so. I think people on a fundamental level remember where they came from.. some just don't like the implications..

Mathematics almost demands it.. I don't know if this makes much sense.. sometimes I think we are painting ourselves into a corner..

I dunno. It just seems.. if there wasn't something to this, it wouldn't deceive one generation after another.. heh.. just a thought.

so at every step, the enigma seems to what's the word.. fold in on itself? If what I'm seeing is correct.. no wonder leonard didn't raise hell about all of this.. it continues today.. what is it that I am looking at.. ............ the vicster looked forward to the day those in governmental office would agree with him.. maybe.. ideas have life after all..

what I wonder is.. how much of that kind of *stuff* was floating around at the time? (Gifts of the spirit and all..) Where did BG get HIS material? just wonder..