Roy
I'm not trained in dealing with the sort of difficulties that vex you. I wouldn't know where to even begin. There are people, though, who do have the training and expertise to help you navigate your way through this difficult journey we call "life". The only advise I can offer is to seek them out and allow them to help you. For what it's worth, I've enjoyed the many times we've talked back and forth on this board and I hope there will be many more times in the future. I hope you know you can PM me anytime you need or want to. I don't have many answers but I'm a pretty good listener. Stay tough. Planet Earth needs your holy hugs.
waysider