along with having only an illusion of *many* days past..
I know, rosie tried fitting in the stool..
I mean.. she might look the part (of a well seasoned sailor).. but who's kidding who?
I dunno..
it's like high school.. maybe.
I can't go back to high school for a few non-ethereal reasons. One is, they tore it down about twenty years ago..
it's a funny feeling though..
and it does..
how many (millions of) circles have we gone around..
and the "dead end".. "I me, me mine..." "I me, me mine.."..
I'll spare you the repetition..
but even that ends..
at the moment.. I'd like some thing or entity to stand in front of me and speak some words of wisdom..
heh..
the last dream I had.. maybe I should not say..
I hope you can see something that outlives you..
there has to be something..
if not..
if you live in Tucson Arizona..
buy some California Grass..
"go home"..
heh
Sweet Loretta had a few *issues*..
heh
heh..
"and thanks in behalf of the group, and I hope we passed the audition"..
Cheated? No..
myself.. feelings of regrets and all..
there are a few what's the word..
I can't say "results"..
there are two children, I would not trade for fame or fortune..
one grandchild..
one yet to come..
have to listen to the album Paw hates..
"Let it Be"..
Perhaps..
well.. myself. I prefer a more "psychedelically" charged definition..
heh
the whole problem with this..
one will eventually return to the home from which one came..
well, depending on whatever religion you embrace at the time..
do you really want to return to a state of perfection.. I mean, there has to be some reason (though masked in your consciousness) why one wanted to abandon it (or take a vacation from it) to begin with..
just a thought..
:)
"Vagabond lifestyle"..
I dunno. It is reserved for the "deeply spiritual"..
the same thought troubles me even after close to twenty years after no involvement in da way..
I still don't feel at home in the community in which I live..
why is it.. because they cannot fulfill what a corrupt organization itself could not provide?
just a thought..
so where is "home"..
maybe.. we (*I*) can't go home..
no, I won't reply.. nooooo..
well.. the loyster is getting "up there" in years..
shrinking kingdom..
smaller every year..
less latex to fill...
sowy..
I refuse to say more..